Things have gotten bad. I hate thinking this way I hate what I have done with self-harming. I breaking down I don't know how much I can take with this the only person who actually understand is one friend the rest like my family don't understand nor want to understand. I'm at a loss with everything. I feel so damn hopeless.. I truthfully wanted to end it all last night but i didn't i fought those thoughts i don't want to end up with what my dad did. I can't. But it's breaking me to pieces i don't know what to do..