My self-esteem issues have gotten too extreme. I believe they started when I started  middle school...God, I'm about to cry just writing this. Anyways, in middle school all of my friends got boyfriends and no one was interested in me. I would look in the mirror and say "Boys don't like you because you're fat" or "Boys don't like me because my face is ugly." I thought everything about me was ugly and I started rating  my school days based on how I looked. Then when I turned 13, I got my first phone. My social life at school sucked, so I went to a Teenchat app. I was naive. There were people there well beyond their teenage years so when random men texted me, that's when things got really bad. My self-esteem issues were still there. They never faded. So with no boys crushing on me at school, I seeked attention and approval in all the wrong places, causing me to do terrible things I'd rather not say. Anyways, my 13 year old self didn't know what she was doing was wrong until she got caught. And when her parents took her phone away, they took away the men, who were the only self-esteem boosters she had. Everything just went downward from there. The criticizing voices got worse. "Ugly" "Fat" "Hideous". It got to the point where I missed most of class to cry in the bathroom about my ugliness. I would bully myself and I don't know how to make it stop. Now I'm in high school and I have a boyfriend but I STILL feel ugly. I thought having a boyfriend would help, but it didn't, and it's driving me insane. I really need help with my issues before it gets worse. I'm missing school because I would break down about my appearance but I'd lie and tell my mom I'm having asthma issues. My self-esteem is ruining my school and social life. It's making me skip class and I HATE it. I just want to feel happy again. I had posted this on another group but every single person is like not in it or something so I'm bringing my problems to you guys. Please help.