hi. i'm emily, and i'm seventeen- but all of that nonsense is irrelevant. my real question is if anyone has dealt with the ideas of telepathy, mind control, thought broadcasting, racing thoughts, and voices. i'm also an addict- but i'm sober now, but whenever i would drop acid (which i did quite a bit) i would go to this alternate dimension where the beings there are super intelligent and all your thoughts could be heard through thinking. thinking was the same as speaking, and my big huge secret (other than i was a drug addict out of her mind on 7 hits of acid) was that i knew this secret about myself- that i was an android, a language machine; but i was broken. i noticed all the connections and immediately thought of pink floyd's "welcome to the machine". this universe- there are three total including our own (trinity) would appear out of the ceiling and would be blindingly white multicolored numbers, grids, and words all composing figures of other beings; which would sparkle like diamonds. this was all on and off the acid, and its been at least four months since my last acid trip, and i have remained sober; but i have the same problem still with everything. the voices in my head are those of people i know, and they can hear all of my thoughts, and i can hear theirs. i know i sound utterly insane; but i have been to the point of thinking that nothing of this is real (including the universe). i just need to know if i'm the only person who has ever thought/saw/felt this way before, your experience with it, and what i should do to help it.