Resurrection After Rape Community Group
Discussion, question-and-answer, general social support, and journal processing for progress-oriented rape survivors. No crisis, no damaging or triggering conflicts--this is for individuals who want to contribute to collective, cooperative action toward the goal of making actual PROGRESS through rape trauma. Much of this work is based on the book "Resurrection After...
The PTSD may become stronger when a non-labeler becomes a labeler and realizes the full extent of what she's dealing with. And a person who is a "non-labeler"? I suspect they know many times exactly what happened but to truly admit it would mean a whole other level of understanding and acceptance. So, at what point does that transition occur? Is it all about education?
I was gonna type "Can a non-labeler truly heal from rape", but erased it cause it sounded silly and paradoxal. Then I re-read something above, "why is labeling an important step in healing, yet many of our labelers had higher rates of PTSD?"
If this tells ME anything, it just reiterates how hard the journey to survivorhood can be.. Yeah, PTSD may come, but you have to go through it to get to the other side. This has been especially relavent to me lately, in dealing with being pushed through the PTSD and dealing with it to get to the level of survivor that I want.
I guess this is exactly why when people read their stories, you said they have told you "It was the worst and best day of their life". Cause pushing through sucks.
I see this more in the context of the legendary "hero's journey" process than just a clinical distinction between "labeling" and "non-labeling."
It's the way I rationalised things for a couple of years, until I realised I couldn't keep 'forgetting' what had happened.
What did I enter therapy for? I was becoming more and more anxious. I could not sleep at night. My parents were in a decline and I was in a panic that I needed to do something. OK.. so I am not there for sexual abuse, abuse, etc.. (I go back and forth with that labeler/non-labeler). I did not know that I had PTSD. It clearly was worse, but I had been living with aspects of PTSD my whole life. I did not know it like scuba says.
I still trouble with the words. Sometimes, I am better at it than others. I know that I need to label in order to move ahead. I go back and forth between this. A little backward right now...
I am not sure that study is on target because this is not black and white stuff.
Maybe I was a "semi-labeler". I labeled part of my rape as rape, but the first part as consensual. Why it was so important to me to deny that the whole thing was rape, I have no idea. Maybe it was so I could beat myself up and blame myself for the entire rape.
I agree that the two categories don't tell the whole story, or an accurate one. There are two types of people in the world: those who believe there are only two types of people, and those who don't.
The findings about mental health were unusual. Labelers were more likely to exhibit symptoms of PTSD than non-labelers, which the researchers found to be contrary to the conventional beliefs of therapists that labeling rape is a part of recovery. However, non-labelers had significantly higher rates of binge-drinking and other self-harming behaviors.
Binge drinking and self-harming is "more recovered" than PTSD? Either way I see a disrupted life, the only thing that is different is the diagnosis.
I haven't looked at the article itself (no access to an academic library at present), but it seems to me that the conclusion that the finding is "contrary to the conventional beliefs of therapists" is unwarranted. One could just as easily say that the results confirm the belief of many therapists that self-harming behaviors and acholism may be signs of prior (unnamed) trauma.
IMHO, about the only thing that *can* be concluded is that the research study raises an interesting question. There is a need for studies with a methodology suitable for determining which conclusion is the better read.
<<<Labelers were more likely to exhibit symptoms of PTSD than non-labelers, which the researchers found to be contrary to the conventional beliefs of therapists that labeling rape is a part of recovery.>>>
I would say that is a highly unusual conclusion to make....disregarding levels and stages of coping mechinisms of trauma.
When I went on a date all I knew of rape would be a stanger with a bad attitude. The term date rape did not exist.
What funny is that after it was down this word appeared to from inside of me ... it told me rape ... I acknowledged it briefly and accepted that that what it was... days later ... weeks later the term was gone ... I was in denial of sorts &but not totally) and actually saw the perpetrator. I saw myself as a moth flying into a light getting burned but some how with some purpose . It difficult to read my journals while in this odd state of denial of the term. I went to college, went abroad, had a boyfriend, I was changed I knew this but didn't look ptsd or anything. I would think about how it effected me but didn't tell anyone or have dialogues about "what I knew" on some level and there were levels that I was in denial of ... didn't know while it was effecting me. I was operating on a plain of knowing and not knowing.
After really getting hurt in a live in situation where the rape would not have been called rape because thru manipulation it can start to blur.... so take that into account when someone is more involved with the person.
After that suddenly I remember "the rape" from High School. I might have faced death in that situation I had to no longer be in denial!!!
So now I had pretty bad PTSD. and started identifying the source being in high school. PTSD worsens as you live life... there's the failed relationship, then the career, then the support systems. You lose this job and then your out looking for another place to live take a place quickly and there's a bad roommate or something.
If I had been able to go to "see someone" immediately after like I had cried and asked my mother. I told her "I need help" she didn't get it for me. I had no where else to go. I wonder if then as I told the counsler about what happened the week before and called it rape if my crying would have been called PTSD. Four years later I went to a counselor just cause I was not feeling good...life situations. My PTSD was under wraps. Unraveling my life but with a placid face. As I called it rape I started to build underneath me a stronger foundation and showed my emotions.
What of a person who doesn't label out of simple ignorance...and is there a timeline taken into account with the labeling? Like, did the labelers do so right up-front...or after years of figuring out their plight?
I am not sure about how I really feel about this study. I am not offended...don't feel pidgeon-holed. I am kind of ambivilent I suppose. I will spend time thinking about it and come back to it.
Ah, but Elisheva, if some researchers planned their methodology more carefully in the first place there'd be no need for the Bad Science website any more - and that's one of my favourite sites!
http://www.badscience.net/
And for that matter, where would I go to get my "intellectual superiority" ego-boosts? I'd have to start working for doctors again!
*giggles*