Resurrection After Rape Community Group
Discussion, question-and-answer, general social support, and journal processing for progress-oriented rape survivors. No crisis, no damaging or triggering conflicts--this is for individuals who want to contribute to collective, cooperative action toward the goal of making actual PROGRESS through rape trauma. Much of this work is based on the book "Resurrection After...
Aimee Mann - "All Over Now" - http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/allovernow.mp3
Though I let you steer
You were cavalier
Inch became a light year
It was pathetic
Oh you can write the play
And every word I say
But I don't have to stay
To see the credits
'Cause it's all over now
Yes it's all over now
And I'm free
I was one of few
Who'd stick up for you
And so you never knew
You were a punch line
I could not convince or trust you
To pick up on my hints, must you
Leave your fingerprints
On everything I called mine
Well that's all over now
Yes it's all over now
And I'm free
Yes I'm free
From your interference
Which had the appearance
Of making it clear that
It's got nothing to do with me
And I warn you now
Of the velocity I'm gathering...
Though I let you steer
You were cavalier
Inch became a light year
It was pathetic
Oh you can write the play
And every word I say
But I don't have to stay
To see the credits
'Cause it's all over now
Yes it's all over now
And I'm free
I was one of few
Who'd stick up for you
And so you never knew
You were a punch line
I could not convince or trust you
To pick up on my hints, must you
Leave your fingerprints
On everything I called mine
Well that's all over now
Yes it's all over now
And I'm free
Yes I'm free
From your interference
Which had the appearance
Of making it clear that
It's got nothing to do with me
And I warn you now
Of the velocity I'm gathering...
So maybe I wasn't
that good a friend
but you were one of us
and I will wonder
just like anyone
if there was something
else I could've done
So maybe it's true that
your cry for help
was oh, so very faint
but still I heard
and knew something was wrong
just nothing you could put your finger on
and I will wonder
just like anyone
just like anyone
You looked the part of
The poor brave martyr
And guess who broke your heart
Whoever has it
Sugarcoated
When they wrote it
I would've believed it too
I would've believed it too
I would believe it
I'm so relentless
And you're defenseless
Until the pencil stops
You'll be the one who's
Sugarcoated
Overloaded
Do you believe it's true
Do you believe it's true
Do you believe it
And out of your mouth
Comes a stream of cliches
Now I have given you so much rope
You should have been hanging for days
But you keep spinning it out
Spinning it out
It wasn't nice though
I came back twice so
Now I'm the antichrist
If I had been as
Sugarcoated
Self-promoted
They would've believed me too
They would've believed me too
Would you believe me too
Would you believe it too
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/BlindFaith.mp3
Michael Franti and Spearhead - "Have a little faith"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/HaveFaith.mp3
Bill Miller - Ghost Dance
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/GhostDance.mp3
Bill Miller - "You are the rain"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/YouAreRain.mp3
Bill Miller - "Brave Heart"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/BraveHeart.mp3
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/YrGonnaGoFar.mp3
Aimee Mann - "Nothing is Good Enough"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/NothingGoodEnough.mp3
Once upon a time is how it always goes
but I'll make it brief
what was started out with such excitement
now I'd gladly end end with relief
in what now has become a familiar motif:
That nothing is good enough
for people like you
who have to have someone take the fall
and something to sabotage--
determined to lose it all
Critics at their worst could never criticize
the way that you do
no, there's no one else, I find,
to undermine or dash a hope
quite like you
and you do it so casually, too
Cause nothing is good enough
for people like you
who have to have someone take the fall
and something to sabotage--
determined to lose it all
Ladies and gentlemen--
here's exhibit A
didn't I try again?
And did the effort pay?
Wouldn't a smarter man
simply walk away?
It doesn't really help that you can never say
what you're looking for
but you'll know it when you hear it,
know it when you see it walk through the door
So you say--
so you've said many times before
But nothing is good enough
for people like you
who have to have someone take the fall
and something to sabotage--
determined to lose it all
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Soundsystem.mp3
Michael Franti and spearhead - "Little Bit of Rhythm"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/LittleRhythm.mp3
Michael Franti and Spearhead - "Hey World/Don't Give Up"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Dontgiveup.mp3
Moby - "My Weakness"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/MyWeakness.mp3
Moby - "In My Heart"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Inmyheart.mp3
Moby - "All that I need is to be loved"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/MobyLoved.mp3
Moby - "God moving over the face of the waters"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/GodMoving.mp3
Michael Franti and Spearhead - "Is love enough?"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/14IsLoveEnough.mp3
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/12WhatIveSeen.mp3
Michael Franti and Spearhead - "I'm not alone"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/03NotAlone.mp3
Michael Franti and Spearhead - "Yell Fire"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/02YellFire.mp3
Michael Franti and Spearhead - "Time to Go Home"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/01TimeToGoHome.mp3
Moby - "Slipping Away"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/MobySlippingAway.mp3
All that we needed was right
The fresh hold is breaking tonight
Open to everything happy and sad
Seeing the good when it's all going bad
Seeing the sun when I can't really see
Hoping the sun will at least look at me
Focus on everything better today
All that I needed I never could say
Hold on people they're slipping away
Hold on to this while it's slipping away
All that we needed tonight
Are people who love us and light
I know how it feels to need
Oh and we leave here
Open to everything happy and sad
Seeing the good when it's all going bad
Seeing the sun when I can't really see
Hoping the sun will at least look at me
Focus on everything better today
All that I need and I never could say
Hold on people they're slipping away
Hold on to this while it's slipping away
Open to everything happy and sad
Seeing the good when it's all going bad
Seeing the sun when I can't really see
Hoping the sun will at least look at me
Focus on everything better today
All that I need and I never could say
Hold on to people they're slipping away
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/MobyBeautiful.mp3
Look at us, we're beautiful
All the people push and pull
But let's just go out and ride
Talk about the things we try
Look at us, we're beautiful
All the people push and pull but
they'll never get inside
We've got too much to hide
Michael Franti - "Passion"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/FrantiPassion.mp3
Beth Hart - "Get your $^&* Together" (cursing)
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/GetTogether.mp3
Did you take it too far
did you forget who you are
did you stash your soul
into the closet forever
So now you're hustling
for the five & dime
you cure the stranger
& his perverted mind
You are the poet of need
& lust how's the preachin'
You painted destinations
on the inside
& dreamed of revelations
yearning to fly
Beth Hart - "Broken and Ugly" (cursing)
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/brokenugly.mp3
Down in Alabama where I'm wanted in jail
I'm a little nervous in the Bible belt
Indian Nation - "Whole Lotta Love"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/wholelottalove.mp3
Indian Nation - "NDN and proud of it"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/NDNproud.mp3
Bill Miller - "Pile of Stones"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/pileofstones.mp3
Bill Miller - "After the storm"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/afterthestorm.mp3
Midnight Oil - "Dead Hearts"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/deadheart.mp3
Ojibway Elders - "My Prayer"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/myprayer.mp3
Ojibway - "Road of Souls"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Roadofsouls.mp3
Ojibway Elders - "Returning"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Returning.mp3
Ani Difranco - "Grey"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Grey.mp3
The sky is grey, the sand is grey, and the ocean is grey.
I feel right at home in this stunning monochrome, alone in my way.
I smoke and I drink and every time I blink I have a tiny dream.
But as bad as I am I'm proud of the fact that I'm worse than I seem.
What kind of paradise am I looking for?
I've got everything I want and still I want more.
Maybe some tiny shiny thing will wash up on the shore.
You walk through my walls like a ghost on TV
You penetrate me and my little pink heart is on its little brown raft floating out to sea.
And what can I say but I'm wired this way and you're wired to me
And what can I do but wallow in you unintentionally?
What kind of paradise am I looking for?
I've got everything I want and still I want more.
Maybe some tiny shiny key will wash up on the shore.
Regretfully, I guess I've got three simple things to say.
Why me? Why this now? Why this way?
Overtone's ringing, undertow's pulling away under a sky that is grey on sand
That is grey by an ocean that's grey.
What kind of paradise am I looking for?
I've got everything I want and still I want more.
Maybe some tiny shiny key will wash up on the shore.
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/BuildingsBridges.mp3
Buildings and bridges
Are made to bend in the wind
To withstand the world,
That's what it takes
All that steel and stone
Is no match for the air, my friend
What doesn't bend breaks
What doesn't bend breaks
We are made to bleed
And scab and heal and bleed again
And turn every scar into a joke
We are made to fight
And fuck and talk and fight again
And sit around and laugh until we choke
Sit around and laugh until we choke
I don't know who you were expecting
Probably some bitch who does not budge
With eyes the size of snow
I may get pissed off sometimes
But you seem like the type to hold a grudge
And in the end, I just let it go...
Buildings and bridges
Are made to bend in the wind
To withstand the world,
That's what it takes
All that steel and stone
Is no match for the air, my friend
What doesn't bend breaks
U2 - "Acrobat"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Acrobat.mp3
Concrete Blonde - "Why don't you see me?"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/WhydontYouSeeMe.mp3
When you lay down,
Do you hear sounds?
Does the silence have a voice?
What does it say?
What do you hear?
What does it whisper in your ear?
Why don't you hear me?
Why don't you hear me?
When you get up,
into the light,
When you come up out of your night,
What do you see?
And do you see?
Or have you lost your sense of sight?
Why don't you see me?
Why don't you see me?
Why don't you see me?
Why don't you see me?
What do you think?
What do you feel?
'Cause this is feeling very real.
And if you feel,
Why can't you say?
Give me a little demonstration.
Can't you feel me?
Why don't you feel me?
Why don't you feel me?
Why don't you feel me?
Are you in love?
Are you in pain?
Are they together and the same?
Where do you go?
Who do you know?
Are you that lonely ghost on the side?
Why don't you see me?
Aimee Mann - "How it goes"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/HowItGoes.mp3
Aimee Mann - "Lost in space"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/LostInSpace.mp3
Traditional Native healing song
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Healingsong.mp3
Ani Difranco - "Pulse"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/pulse.mp3
Superchic[k] - "Beauty from pain"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/BFP.mp3
Superchic[k] - "Stand in the rain"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/StandRain.mp3
Superchic[k] - "Carry me"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/CarryMe.mp3
Superchic[k] - "One More"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/OneMore.mp3
Ani Difranco - "Parameters"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Parameters.mp3
Aimee Mann - "It's not safe" (cursing)
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/NotSafe.mp3
All you want to do is something good
So get ready to be ridiculed and misunderstood
'Cause don't you know that you're a fucking freak in this world
In which everybody's willing to choose swine over pearls
And maybe everything is all for nothing
Still you'd better keep it to yourself
'Cause God knows it's not safe with anybody else
You can take your own advice and try again
But a thousand compromises don't add up to a win
And they'd be happy if you'd only cover your tracks
But the trail of crumbs you've left
Won't help you find your way back
So maybe everything is all for nothing
Still you'd better keep it to yourself
'Cause God knows it's not safe with anybody else
God knows it's not safe with anybody else
You can play along, but you'll just end up wrong somehow, won't you...
But you're the idiot who keeps believing in luck
And you just can't get it through your head
Tthat no one else gives a fuck
So maybe everything is all for nothing
Still you'd better keep it to yourself
'Cause God knows it's not safe with anybody else
God knows it's not safe with anybody else
God knows it's not safe with anybody else
It's not safe with anybody else
God knows it's not safe with anybody else
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/ItsNot.mp3
Sage Francis - "Waterline"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Waterline.mp3
Moby - "Extreme Ways"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/ExtremeWays.mp3
Moby - "Why does my heart feel so bad?"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/HeartFeelBad.mp3
Bill Miller - "Never too far"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/NeverTooFar.mp3
Bill Miller - "Sun is gonna rise again"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/SunRise.mp3
Bill Miller - "Every Mountain"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/EveryMountain.mp3
Joseph Marshall - "Keep Going"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/KeepGoing.mp3
Depeche Mode - "Precious"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Precious.mp3
Johnette Napolitano - "Everything for Everyone"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Everyone.mp3
Johnette Napolitano - "Amazing"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Amazing.mp3
The Cure - "Homesick"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/CureHomesick.mp3
the Cure - "Prayers for Rain"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/PrayersRain.mp3
Ani Difranco - "School night"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/SchoolNight.mp3
Ani Difranco - "I'm no Heroine"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Heroine.mp3
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/DoneWrong.mp3
the wind is ruthless
the trees shake angry fingers at the sky
the people hunch their shoulders
hold their collars over their ears and run by
it's a cold rain
it's a hard rain
like the kind that you find in songs
i guess that makes me the jerk with the heartache
here to sing you about how I've been done wrong
and i am sitting, watching
out the window of the coffee shop
and i am waiting, waiting
waiting for it to let up
i am rocking like a cradle
warming my hands with the cup in between
i am leaning over the table
holding my face over the steam
and before it gets so cold
that the rain turns to snow
there's just a couple things
i'd like to know
like how could you do nothing
but say, "i'm doing my best?"
how could you take almost everything
and then come back for the rest?
how could you beg me to stay,
reach out your hands and plead
and then pack up your eyes and run away
as soon as i agreed?
it just all slips
away so slowly
you don't even notice till you've lost a lot
i've been like one of those zombies
in vegas
pouring quarters into a slot
and now i'm tired
and i am broke
and i feel stupid and i feel used
and i'm at the end of my little rope
and i am swinging back and forth
about you
before it gets so cold
that the rain turns to snow
there's just a couple things
i'd like to know
like how could you do nothing
and say, "i'm doing my best?"
how could you take almost everything
and then come back for the rest?
how could you beg me to stay,
reach out your hands and plead
and then pack up your eyes and run away
as soon as i agreed?
Moby - "Everloving"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Everloving.mp3
Ani Difranco - "Fixing her hair"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Fixing_Her_Hair.mp3
Ani Difranco - "Superhero" (cursing)
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Superhero.mp3
Ani Difranco - "Willing to fight"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/WillingtoFight.mp3
Beth Hart - "Leave the light on"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/LightOn.mp3
Superchic[k] - "Redeemed"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Redeemed.mp3
Plumb - "Damaged"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Damaged.mp3
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/PerfectCrime.mp3
My eyes are jaded and complicated,
tired of the liars and the masqueraded
Who steals our innocence away,
like a thief in the night?
Who took away our faith in what we know to be right?
That was another world, then
that was another time
You can never go back to the scene of a perfect crime.
Whatever became of the child I was
I never want to lose her no
I won't give her up
and now my heart is harder,
my skin is getting tougher and tougher
That was another world then
That was another time
You can never go back to the place where love is blind
You can never go back to the scene of a perfect crime
Whatever became of our sweet blind love
As long as we could be together it was more than enough
Now we're all grown up and we need so much
I never knew that the price would go up as such
That was another world then, then
That was another time
Well you can never go back to the place where love is blind.
Well you can never go back to the place where love is blind.
Well you can never go back to the place where love is blind.
You can never go back to the scene of a perfect crime.
Tina Dico - "Her secret"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/HerSecret.mp3
Everyone stares
Awkwardly drawn
They watch her pretend to be as boring as she seems
I'm on my toes
I hang on her words
I ache to reveal the dark potential in her dreams
So I tear her apart
'cause I'm curious to know what's inside her belly
I tear her apart
'cause I'm curious to know
Yes I'm curious to know
What is inside
What is her secret
The storm in her eyes
Her disguise
The truth in her lies
What is her secret
It's breaking her down to the ground
The stain on her dress
The air heavy with fear
Every story her eyes can tell will lead you back to here
So you tear her apart
'cause you're curious to know what's inside her belly
You tear her apart
'cause you're curious to know
Yes you're curious to know
What is inside
What is inside
What lies behind
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Gradually.mp3
Aimee Mann - "Say Anything"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/sayanything.mp3
You see me as a judge
though I deny it
and hold me like a grudge
then justify it
But when you take such pains
in searching for something that explains
please take a good look at our remains
'Cause if you were everything you say
things would be different today
and maybe there's room for compromise
but signs that I get say otherwise
say anything 'cause I've heard everything
As hopeless as it seems
I wouldn't worry
You'll get your chance to tell
your side of the story
while you're raising your right hand,
whatever defenses you had planned,
remember that when you take the stand
If you were everything you say
things would be different today
and though I'd be happy to believe
I'd have to be much more naive
say anything, (I've heard everything)
yeah say anything, (I've heard everything)
Now I've heard everything (now I've heard everything)
Now I've heard everything (now I've heard everything)
So why do I refuse
the truth, when I clearly cannot use
the comfort of one more lame excuse
'Cause if you were everything you say
things would be different today
and if you were everything you swear
we wouldn't be beyond repair
If you were everything you say
things would be different today
and if there has got to be an if
get it over with
say anything, 'cause I've heard everything
now I've heard everything (now I've heard everything)
now I've heard everything
Seether - "Fake It"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/FakeIt.mp3
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Superhero.mp3
U2 - "Bad"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Bad.mp3
Vast - "Free"
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/Free.mp3
it's time to laugh it's time to cry
it's time to be what you need to be
it won't be long 'til they are gone
and we can be what we want to be
i wanna run from everything
everything that holds me down
nothing to win nothing to lose
you can't tell me what to do anymore
you can't tell me what to do anymore
now i'm free
now i'm free
now i'm free
i'm gonna run
i'm gonna win
i'm gonna do what i need to do
'cause it's time to be what I need to be
it's time to be what i need to be
you can't tell me what to do anymore
you can't tell me what to do anymore
now i'm free
now i'm free
now i'm free
oh yeah
i want to hold air in my hand
own the one thing you can't buy
nothing to win nothing to lose
it's time to be what i need to be
i'm gonna run from everything
everything that holds me down
nothing to win nothing to lose
it's time to be what i need to be
you can't tell me what to do anymore
you can't tell me what to do anymore
now i'm free
http://resurrectionafterrape.org/mp3/SurvivorStory.mp3