Resurrection After Rape Community Group
Discussion, question-and-answer, general social support, and journal processing for progress-oriented rape survivors. No crisis, no damaging or triggering conflicts--this is for individuals who want to contribute to collective, cooperative action toward the goal of making actual PROGRESS through rape trauma. Much of this work is based on the book "Resurrection After...
My friend Jennifer asked me recently how it was that despite a lot of pain and strife, that Tonya and I have not given up the slightest speck of compassion, or sparkle of hope in our eyes--because we haven't. Jennifer said that she would have expected that my heart would have become bitter, that I would have sulked away. She said that instead, she sees Tonya and me reaching out as much as ever. I told her that one thing I'd learned is that during adversity we need to become MORE compassionate, not harder, and that if anything my faith in the importance of friendship has been renewed. I have seen people relinquish their grasp on the guidelines of good friendship, only to drift alone. I don't want to do that. I never want to look back on a tough era in my life and criticize myself for neglecting my loved ones. As Ani Difranco says, "I owe my life to the people that I love." Who knows where I'll be in ten years? I might be in a place of hardship, and I know I'll need friends and companions.
Folks, speaking of strong souls and scars, please keep yourselves healthy. Daily Strength can just as quickly become "Daily Stress," and I would hate to see a place of humor, healing, and honest companionship become contaminated. Negativity is a very powerful emotion, and unfortunately it is easy to give in to temptation to distract our own depression and struggle by projecting it on someone else, a perceived "adversary." I'm asking for people to remain positive, and simply let negativity flow right past without giving it power. Negativity loves to feel justified in victimhood, and the only antidote to it is indifference. You can fight against something, or fight for something, and only one of those results in any actual improvements in the world. I'm asking you not to dilute your dreams to fit the world, but to change the world to fit your dreams. A mark of a true survivor is the willingness to expand one's circle of inclusion to impossibly-wide dimensions, seeing others as worthy in common with yourself. The only exclusivity in survivorhood is the rejection of negativity itself. Kick the dust off your shoes, and move on.
I don't think it's possible to do significant work and not attract at least some critics, but remember that none of you are defined by your flaws, but by your strengths. Do not become burdened by influences in your life that want to wrap you in pronouncements about your past mistakes, and do not define others by their fallibility either. A sufi poem by Rumi says,
Come, come, whoever you are.
Wonderer, worshipper, lover of leaving.
It doesn't matter.
Ours is not a caravan of despair.
Come, even if you have broken your vow
a thousand times
Come, yet again, come, come.
People who know me know that I don't give up--I just don't. My faith, the very faith I constantly fail and disappoint, still begs of me to seek good for those who might not seek it for me, extend the hand of compassion to others just as it has been extended to me, to forgive, and to see people as "strong souls", not bundles of scars.