recently I’ve realized the religion I was raised in is not right for me. I’m taking time to learn about different religions because I feel this shouldent be an on a wim decision. From what I know of my family I feel it would be wise to wait untill I’m living on my own to convert to another religion as my family is very religious. The thing is I’m not sure how I’m going to deal with continuing going to church untill I can live on my own. I just feel unhappy at the thought of going to church. And I find myself feeling aggravated in church. It just feels like they want us to close are minds and like ignorance is faith. I just don’t know how I’m going to keep going in church. Also I’ve become a very self reliant independent person and the church wants us to rely on god and seems to discourage self reliance. It’s just difficult having to continue to go to church.
It seems that you have an awareness of good, and that is where inspiration usually begins. As you realize that something is not right for you, what matters is that you get to the heart of what matters best for you. I can tell you that there is power in a personal revelation; ask of God. Ask through earnest prayer to know that there is a definite meaning to your life, a purpose. You must solely pray for this by great faith that there is a God. Prayer is earnestly the only way to petition the Holy Spirit to guide you directly to the answers you desire. I have personally knelt in prayer to learn very interesting things, unimaginable to the natural person too. I urge you to express thanks as you gain a good idea that God is there for you. He will be. God hears all sincere prayers. I am touched by love that you are seeking a strong spiritual testimony. I pray for you to have very powerful faith and trust in God. Many hugs to you! Praise the Lord.
I know you posted this awhile ago.
I can relate to you in a way. When I was young, growing up, my father's family was not tolerant of my mother being Catholic, nor would they allow me to have been baptized as Catholic; and for many years as a teenager and young adult, I fought mainstream religion. I always believed in God, and even Buddha, both of them. Say the least.. I received my calling and I'm trying to answer that call and get into Seminary (Episcopal Church).
I dislike how many Churches now preach hate; preach discrimination; how they are not accepting of all humans; how they've lost touch that God created us to be the way we are, to be who we are for a reason; how Churches should be a place of sanctuary, acceptance, safety, instill a sense of home, and a place where no matter who you are, you feel God's presence, love, and acceptance while there.
Alas, my spiritual and religious journey began when I took a comparative religion course. I had five professors, all religious leaders, the head professor being an ordained zen buddhist priest. In the end, I am Christian and Buddhist wrapped into one soul and body, I also incorporate Native American Beliefs. so you could say I believe in Christianity, Buddhism, and the Native American Spirituality. I encourage you, you are on the right path, if something in the faith is not right for you, explore other faiths, experience them, appreciate them, you will know when you've found the right faith, the right path to god. It is not the path that matters, it's your belief in him, your trust in him, your patience with him that matters. Pray to him, speak to him daily, he will guide you, and in time you'll see the right path for you. You'll meet many nice people while on this journey of finding the right religious path and faith for you, be open, be accepting, seems like you're on the right path.
Always here if you need someone to chat with!
Exploring different faiths is still to this day a positive experience in my life I've always appreciated.