My 'boyfriend' and I have been together for nearly 4 years. We started dating in high school but college has been so rough with us. We were extremely close and honest with each other all the time. I could say our relationship was perfect until we got to college. We go to different colleges, its about 6 hours away and coming back home isn't easy for him since he has been working to pay for school and required to be involved. He has come home on long breaks, but is now saying he can't be asking for so many days off because its a responsibility he has to learn to manage (which I totally understand). However, we haven't been able to manage this distance well causing me to break up with him and then regretting it, and currently we are in a state where we aren't together but we still talk to each other as if we were sometimes. It has been almost 2 months since I last saw him, but he said he isn't coming down until spring break, so nearly a month and a half and we could talk about us in person then. My parents are too strict and I have tried, but they don't allow me to visit him. I am very "needy" I could say, I need to see people to feel emotionally connected. I also, feel very lonely since we were always so close and now that we aren't around each other, I find it extremely difficult to reach out to people. We don't talk as much, and things have just been really different. He is changing, personally and physically. He has so many new friends and tbh, it scares me. I feel like he pushes me aside and we barely talk and connect like we used to, and when we did we argued about that because he didn't agree with me. He is vaping, and getting piercings, just changing a lot which is something thats weird for him because he has never been like that. He is talking to girls, who he claims are his friends. Maybe this is a little too much info, but for sure, people know 'phone sex' isn't something crazy or new. But when we facetime, I have noticed he is completely shaved, which is odd to me. Before he left, he took a lot of condomns to save them for when he came back to visit me at school. He has always been extremly loyal and I just can't wrap it around my head that he could be seeing someone else. I am just very confused, I really love him and he says he loves me, but we just feel like this gets unhealthy when we are far away and when hes back home it all just feels like were back to normal. I really need help. There is so much, but this is already a lot of things. I feel so depressed and sad all the time, and it is affecting my school work as well. I would immensely appreciate any advice.