Hello World,

I am probably addicted or potentionally addicted to whatever will take me away from my feelings so I am digging this group.

Love

sex

anger 

drugs

internet

resentment

being a victum 

being negative

lazy

lying 

food

people

and I am sure there are more but that's off the top of my head. So, the problem is obvious, right? Pick one and hope the rest follow in the recovery process. I have lately been going in and out of SA. the bottom line there is a dosy for me. No sex with self and progressive victory over lust is a large pill to swallow. I also break out in huge resentment and self hatred when I get a few weeks together, as a last resort I identify out eventhough I more than qualify. I was sexually abused as a child and I don't know if that or something else broke me on the inside but I am broken and it stinks to a point that I am like a maintenance luster, I can make it to work everyday and squeak by with most relationships as long as I can continue to be an immature adult. Once I am expected to act mature, well, I have to run away. This makes it impossible to have a relationship with the opposite sex because I want to be a little kid, I really want a mommy, of sorts but I also...... So, that is a good start, I guess. OK, that's enough out of me.