I was talking to a friend the other day whose H work with my H and OW before my H was moved to another office and she was telling me how their were rumors at work about him and the OW, how everybody was talking and everybody thought they were sleeping together. My H don't really like my friend cause we talk about the EA, the OW and him and we had agreed that I wasn't going to talk to her about it but I did. He was upset at me cause according to him and her boss I was spreading rumors at work and it was my fault that people were talking about it when nobody knew or suspected anything. So today I'm talking to him and I mentioned that people were indeed talking way before I went to his old office and talked to her supervisor, that rumors were already running and people were talking even though he thought, or so he said, they were not. He gets upset cause I talked to my friend about it, he is grilling me about asking about it when we agreed for me not to ask or talk about it with her. I am so upset and angry cause it makes me think that he has something to hide and that's why he don't want me talking to anybody in his old office or asking about her. It seems like he is still trying to protect her. Maybe he is maybe he isn't but it pisses me of that he don't get it, I told him that I felt like a fool, like an idiot, how I fill in the cliche "of the spouse/wife is the last one to know" and all he is thinkink about is that I'm still asking questions and talking about it. Aghh what an ass****!!!!! I wonder what the hell am I still doing here, what am I doing still trying, sometimes it feels like I'm the only one trying. Is it the pain and the hurt really worth it? In days like today I just want to walk away but at the same time the fear of loosing him paralyzes me......ohhh frustrated!!!!!!!