The same thing happened to me...I felt like I was watching it from the ceiling. I felt safer that way.

Oh yes, I can relate. When I was raped by my father as a child (I could more easily tell you how many times I brushed my teeth in any given year than how many times he raped me...), I would often have these sorts of experiences. As weird as it might sound, I would recite nursery rhymes (sometimes poetry) over and over as if I were actually in the book? And I would do this out loud over and over and over until the particular act were also over. I never thought about it at the time (what kid would), but I think that it was my minds way of taking me away from that place at that time to allow me to survive.

Absolutely when i was a kid and it was happening to me i would always pretend i was somewhere else like it was a bad movie and i was stuck watching it it was horrible i still have nightmares sometimes...

It happened to me 2 years ago....... but not only that i had a baby..... he raped me again and not only that it was scarryer then the first time he did it and i dont even know him ...most of my time i feel depressed and think what could I had done stop this I was simply at the wrong place at the wrong time life does suck but you will get better someday........ I still get night mares.....and flashbacks ...and sometimes I get so sad i break down in front of people.... my mom does not believe me ..... but i have proof .....Sarah....sarah is going to be 2 years old on August 12th her birthday was august 12th 2006......it is really depressing because I never get to see her because i gave her up for adoption feel free to add me xxx krystal

Hi CreativeQTEE I can relate. Both times I was raped I had Out of Body Experiences. According to my PTSD work book many people who are raped have this experience, but 98% are afraid to tell any one about it.

Yes, it happened to me too. I thought it was just part of my memory of the rapes until I started really thinking about it. I have the looking down from the ceiling thing, too. There are other gaps in my memory of the rapes as well - just blanked out periods of time with no memories at all. I've heard and read about lots of other people having the same experience. I'm kind of glad that I don't remember it all. It definitely makes prosecutors' job more difficult to encounter blank spots in rape survivors' memories, and it might be one reason a lot of us don't want to go to court. I know other survivors understand because it's so common among us.

Hey everyone I'm trying this who support group thing for the first time. I was raped when I was 18 by a person who I thought was a friend. I am now 26 and have anxiety issues and horrible night terrors abou what happened. I was drugged and woke up in the middle of it; it was weird though I woke up looking at myself. I dont want to go into deatil about what happened but its nice to know that I'm not alone. exspecially on those days I wake up feeling like it just happened all over again.

Girls I am sorry. Its my first time joining a support group. It I wish we were all together. I feel so depressed and out of my body experience all the time: just cooking dinner for my boyfriend because I want his acceptance or just running just because I want to look good so that I can feel somewhat better about myself so I might hopefully hate myself less.. I need help

Yup! I just thought it was something few had happen. Because of the early age and extent of the abuse, there were three of four times that I knew I was close to death and looked down on myself. With me I had a distinct knowledge of someone else with me. To me it was an angel because of my young age and Christian training. Many other times I had dissociative experiences where my mind separated from the torture so I didn't feel but it was not an out of body experience.

Same thing happened to me. The sad thing is that the individual swears they did not rape me. I feel as if I saw it all happen out of my body. I am currently fighting a battle with the court system to get this individual served for their crime. But it is a long and hard battle. I hope justice will be served. I have a feeling it will be. Of anyone wants to talk, please feel free to message me. I am here for you.