My ex husband of 16 years is a cop. This man is a true monster who has gotten away with stalking, harassing and even raping me over these years. He even put a GPS tracking device on my vehicle! A mechanic who changed my oil found it.
But the thing I am most angry about is that he has abused and traumatized both of my daughters as well as me. My oldest daughter was only 3 when I married him. At first he was great. But as soon as that ring was on my finger, his true nature came out. I left after 5 years of pure hell. He was able to get joint custody over our then, 2 year old daughter, although I fought it. He has abused my youngest even worse. There have been numerous Child Services complaints filed on him. One by me. The other by various school teachers and counselors. Each and every time, they put a retired police officer on the case. They have all been closed because it's my daughter's word against this animals.
We are currently in a child custody battle. A very nasty, heated one. One judge was ready to throw me in jail for not forcing my daughter to go on the every weekend visits. I couldn't afford an attorney. So the witch, at the last second, gave me 3 days to find one. I did, but soon found out that this lawyer once worked for the police department! She was not communicating with me and not informing me of court dates! Another judge had temporarily suspended his visitation. But because I didn't show up for 2 court dates that I knew nothing about, another judge gave him a default judgment to not only reinstate his visits, but gave him even more time to traumatize my little girl! I fired that lawyer but now I'm trying to scrap up money for another one. Every lawyer I've spoken to, once I tell them he's a cop, refuses to make payment arrangements. They all are demanding at least a $3000 retainer.

In the past year when my little girl didn't have to go with him, she blossomed finally into a lovely young woman. Now, the nightmares are back and her grades are falling. She had started cutting herself, while she was forced to see him and even threatened to kill herself if she was forced to go with him. I'm terrified she will start that again.

This monster shows up at my door every single weekend with different cops demanding she go with him. The cops, of course, support him 100 %. My daughter has tried telling them about the abuse. They shut her down and tell both of us that we are in contempt of court and that we BOTH could go to jail!!

My ex was married once before me. That woman was smart. She left him and went underground with their two daughter. He only recently found both his girls who are both in their mid 20s now. One of them, after meeting him, will have nothing to do with him. The other occasionally talks to him over the phone.

I am so very angry and upset over this unfair and biased justice system that allows police officers, in the city where I live, to get away with almost everything. This monster is a bully to women and children. If a man confronts him, unless he is wearing his gun and badge, the coward will back down. But women and children are fair game! I am a Christian, but I have so much hatred and unforgiveness toward him. I find myself praying every day and every night that he would just die. His fellow co-workers don't even like him. His family barely tolerates him. He has no friends at all. The cops he shows up with are not in his jurisdiction, so they have no idea what he is capable of. Since he's very charismatic, they instantly believe every word he says. But the people who do know him despise him as well. All he lives for is to torment my daughter and me. His death would be a relief to so many people. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him.

My oldest daughter was molested by him as well. She is 22 now, and she has horrible nightmares about it. She also has post traumatic stress syndrome and difficulty maintaining close relationships. This monster has attempted to destroy our lives. Over these 16 years, he has repeatedly stated that I belong to him and always will. He has said that the divorce is a piece of paper only.

He gets free legal so he continues to demand things of me. He is pushing hard for me to have hard jail time and to pay him child support!!! Although my daughter has told him repeatedly that she doesn't want anything to do with him, she's afraid of him and he's only making the situation worse, he doesn't care. This is all about power and control. He is a sociopath unable and incapable of loving and caring for anyone except for himself.

Has anyone out there experienced anything like this? I'm at my wits end. I am angry and in a state of rage all the time. I'm not a violent person, so I haven't taken this out on my kids. I don't throw and break things. It's all internal being manifested by depression, anxiety, migraines and panic attacks. Yes, I have tried various medications to no avail. The only thing that will solve my problems is when this monster is dead and out of our lives for good.

I also hate and am very, very unhappy in the city where I live. I'm retired from the Air Force, so it was the military that eventually brought me here. That's where I met this monster as well. I hate this city and want to leave desperately. My daughter is the only reason I'm still here. Legally, I can't leave.

If anyone has experienced anything at all like this, please tell me how you got through it. I don't like feeling all of this anger and rage, depression and extreme unhappiness all of the time.