I've just been diagnosed with RA, and I've always been very sick. I was diagnosed with RA about a week ago. I'm still devastated and very scared by all this. I've always had a very tough time fighting off infections and with getting infections and being sick a lot along with other health conditions causing me severe pain and/or putting my life in severe danger. I have just went to the ER two days ago and have not been able to pay the bill from the last time that I went not too long ago. I had an unusually severe migraine and having swollen knuckles that I got told to follow up with a specialist with for. I'm hurting very badly lately, and I'm not able to get around very well because I'm on crutches because of a badly sprained ankle. I heal very slowly. I recently was having a lot of knee pain and noticed that there are cyst like bumps all over my shin. There are some on my arm too. There are a whole lot of them, and it hurts to touch them like a bad bruise. I'm really scared because with the way things are going, it's probably something serious. I've been so sick for so long, and I'm exhausted. I wish my life was better than this because I feel like it's really gone downhill drastically. My family seems to think I'm a chronic over-exaggerater. Both knees are terribly bad right now. I have been having problems with hypoglycemia, fibromyalgia, severe daily migraines, panic attacks, female issues causing severe pain, severe GI problems, and now all this. Every night I just pray so hard that all this pain can just go away and that I won't get any sicker. I spend every waking moment hoping that things will get better. I'm just hurting so bad, and the drugs that modify the RA lower your immunities. Mine are already low. A lot of them are contraindicated if you get infections easily or can't fight off infections very well. I can't imagine getting sicker or having anything else. It seems like things are getting worse and worse for me, and I'm in need of a miracle. I'm so scared right now, and I have little support in my everyday life because people don't understand. I just want to feel better and not have anything else wrong. I don't feel normal and feel like people think that I couldn't possibly have all this wrong with me so young, but I do. It is so painful, and I'm crying so badly right now. I haven't been able to really stop crying for very long lately, and I'm scared things are going to get worse.