I know what you are going through. I am in the same boat in many ways. Trying to navigate this while working, being a husband and father. It's very hard. I can give you my advice (that I admittedly do not always take but I try). I see that you are on a wait list. I am not sure what can be done about that. I suggest getting in with a counselor. I meet with a person weekly via Zoom and it's helpful. Also, medication is a conversation with a doctor. I was very resistant but like you, the triggers were so troubling I was having difficulty just navigating the day. I was put on Lexapro and it works. Understand that it just "takes the edge off" but makes the counseling more effective. I also picked up a copy of "The Body Keeps the Score" and "The PTSD Workbook". Both can be found for a reasonable price on Amazon. The book is great because it goes over the science and has validated my feelings. The workbook really helps me work on my PTSD constructively throughout the week. When I am in a bad mood (which is often unfortunately) I am trying to go to the workbook and continue to focus on it. I find it helps.

I know and understand what you are going through. It is a very difficult situation to be in. I know of a person who is currently going through something similar to what you are going through. It is hard because no matter what is done for them, it seems like nothing makes that person happy, it is like they find the bad in everything. I also have a family member who is going through something like that and the same thing is happening for them. No matter what is done, nothing makes them happy. They find the bad in everything and everyone. Even if something is told to them (to lighten up the situation), it won't work because they will feel that things is being told to them in the defense of the other person.

It is not a fun spot to be in, and not many people will want to be around someone like that.

I heard other people stating that they had lost their marriage because of anxiety and other emotions; they had lost friends, places they lived and the list goes on. Just because of anxiety, being paranoid, and other things. I am not saying that I am a better person than anyone else but I will try my best not to make others feel miserable because of someone else. That is not fair!