there are so many different drugs on the market and yes they can work wonders for one thing or another but the side effects on them really stink.. its almost as if in order to take care of one problem you have to accept another., my prayers and thoughts are with you.. im here if you ever just need to talk.. private message me and i will give you my number that way you have someone other then those you mentioned to talk to so they dont freak out but also so you have someone to talk it out with.. love and hugs carrie

So sorry to read of yur situation. Many of us have been there, so you a re not alone in yur thoughts. The MS does affect our brain chemistry, so it is not you that is loosing control, but the MS. It helps to realize that it is not us, but our MS. Sometimes this gives us control over those feelings because we ca take a pause and stand back a few feet to look at it differently. Take a deep breath, letting it out slowly.
There are many anti-depressants, and you might need to speak to your doc to try a different one. Yes, trazadone is also a milk anti-depressant. There are several others. I take cymbalta presently, and found it was the only thing that worked for me, but that might not work for you. We are like snowflakes, int hat there are never 2 snowflakes exactly alike, and there are never 2 MS'ers exactly alike.

Try to figure out if there is a time of the day you become more depressed. Is there something that triggers it? Have you slept well the night before? How has your diet been? Are you drinking at least 8 full glasses of water per day, and still depressed? Is it something someone said to you? These are important questions when you see your doc.

Have you gone to a local MS Support group? There are groups of the NMSS, MSA, and MSF.

Look online under MS and depression. Yu will see that it is the lesions in our brain, and changes in our brain chemistry that make us depressed. We cannot totally control it, but we can do things that give us control over our lives, such as finding the right meds to take. Just as if you had a broken leg, it would not heal by itself, but would need to have a caST, ETC, you need to approach your doc in the same tone fo voice to let him/her know that you need a better medicine.

Also, if there are any MS gentle yoga classes, you might try that. Also, might call the NMSS, MSF, or MSAA to see if they recommend a therapist in your sity that is experienced with MS patients.

U MIGHT WANT TO CHECK WITH UR DOC..MAYBE UR MED NEEDS TO B INCREASED OR CHANGED. U CAN ALWAYS TALK HERE AND GET SUPPORT. ALSO, READ 'LEANN'S RIDE THE WAY' ENTRY HERE.

I would definitely talk with ur doc. I was on venlafaxine and it made me really depressed. Some anti depressants in the right dose really help symptoms of MS and depression that can come with MS. however not everyone with MS has depression all the time. I know that I don't feel depressed. Then they gave me a test and said I was mildly depressed. OK...whatever. I feel better with out venlafaxine...also known as Effexor if I remember correctly. Also just having someone to talk with might help. Please feel free to message me.
many hugs and spoons
Kim