It seems as if everything thing is fine. Daily life is starting this morning getting kids ready, ect.. well then normal life hits broke, can't find anything, strrsses, and I said something to my husband and he's like "well honey, your in charge of that?" I felt it was rude and hitting below and the belt and it reminded of all the stuff I do try to make end meet and how in that moment I felt very unappreciated and that what I did didn't matter anymore and only he mattered. Am I crazy? I feel crazy! Or is it just that this is really over and we can't keep running on this hamster wheel to crazy town. I'm so emotional now and just an utter reck. Is is the stress that is causing me to be emotional or is it the pmdd? I can't tell and I'm just starting to feel like all this, the family life, the husband, the kids, the constant do for them and they never do for you moments. I'm really starting to feel like its not worth it at all. I honestly feel like they will be better without me. I'm told how I'm the problem anyway. I'm so sad and I'm soooo mad that this is happening to me and even more mad that it seems to be winning.
I’m sorry to read what you’re going through. I can relate. It is a vicious cycle when you are stressed and then add PMDD. It is a whirlwind that can take a while to work through. I advise taking it one moment (literally) at a time. Slow down and give yourself a moment for some deep breathing. It sounds silly or too simple, but it really helps you ground and re focus. Best of luck and hugs to you!
I am so sorry for what you are going through. It's been several days, I was just wondering how you are feeling now? Because, if it's PMDD that's the cause, you should feel better by now.
Thank you both for your words of encouragement
. well it was going better but this is Jan to broke to pick up my meds this week so because of that i didnt get ahead of it in time. So now she has reared her ugly head agian. Man if there was B**** I would like to kick the S*** out of, it would be her!!
Why is it that our spouses say that we need to calm ourselves down and control our emotions..if they only knew what was happening and how out of control we feel. Like serioulsy were hanging on by a thread for me its about 10/14 days before my cycle. I just dont know what to do. When im in this state of mind I honeslty think i would rather be alone. Why have a spouse or family if they are just mad at you for the way your being.
Or does anyone ever check on you as if your broken and im not talking on the bad days im talking on the good days when you are happy. My family now is always asking me if im ok? Like yes im ok. It makes me feel sometimes that maybe if. I was alone then. I wouldnt be here to disappoint them all the time with my poor behavior. Ugh i hate this illness so much. Almost 40 and still cant get my S*** together!
I understand the feelings you shared. It's ugly.
. well it was going better but this is Jan to broke to pick up my meds this week so because of that i didnt get ahead of it in time. So now she has reared her ugly head agian. Man if there was B**** I would like to kick the S*** out of, it would be her!!
Why is it that our spouses say that we need to calm ourselves down and control our emotions..if they only knew what was happening and how out of control we feel. Like serioulsy were hanging on by a thread for me its about 10/14 days before my cycle. I just dont know what to do. When im in this state of mind I honeslty think i would rather be alone. Why have a spouse or family if they are just mad at you for the way your being.
Or does anyone ever check on you as if your broken and im not talking on the bad days im talking on the good days when you are happy. My family now is always asking me if im ok? Like yes im ok. It makes me feel sometimes that maybe if. I was alone then. I wouldnt be here to disappoint them all the time with my poor behavior. Ugh i hate this illness so much. Almost 40 and still cant get my S*** together!