Just when I think everything is back to normal...This is tearing my family apart and I almost don't even want to be a member of my family anymore because I am soooo offended by everything they say to me. Then when I try to understand all I hear is my husband yelling things at me like "you need to stop" yet he is the one yelling or things like just quit with all you bullet questions "your like a machine gun" yet all I think im trying to do is understand where I went wrong... To him leaving the house to get away from me or telling me things like well if your so certain your gonna be a B**** then you should just take your stuff and go to your moms house for the day. I didn't really even realize I was being a B. Im struggling because I love my family so much but for some reason I am also their biggest problem. Why should I stay if this keeps happening? How do we make things better? Why when it is problably a really stupid small fight why does it always seem like the end of the world? why do we feel hopeless in these times of need? how is it we push away the only people who truly love us and we don't even realize we are doing it until its too late?.

Signed sad and confused.