PMDD Support Community Group
A group specifically addressing Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder; severe emotional and physical problems associated with the menstrual cycle. A place where we can share our feelings during the tough times and different types of treatments. Moodswings welcome!
Sometimes, i am a magnificent person. until a couple weeks before that time again. i go off my rocker, not even normally, i hardly even know who i am. i become introverted, angry, and unorganized in my thoughts and life.
but i am afraid of diognosis. for anything that does not have a scientific method of testing. especially after my recent studies in college. there are so many illnesses, and i think some of them are just bull crap and a lot of people self diognosing, and the pharmacutical companies trying to get money telling you you need this medicine. and i think most of our ailments are in the processed food we eat. i hope i didnt offend anyone, im just saying. my opinion. but this.... this is killing me. when i think back to periods of time in my life where i felt ok for long amounts of time, i think the army, when i was structured and working out every day, and didnt have a period, and when i was pregnant.
i dont know what to do... im so tired of the mood swings. so tired of trying to be OK. i want to give up sometimes. ive wondered if i was bi polar before... but it doesnt quite fit. and i hate the idea of having to take meds the rest of my life... there has to be another way, there has to be. i want a life, to be a good CONSISTENT mother, to maybe marry someday or find a relationship where i dont have to doubt myself because of some mood condition. where i can express my true feelings without someone thinking im having a mood swing. without the anxiety. ugh.... im pretty desperate. any reply is greatly appreciated
but i am afraid of diognosis. for anything that does not have a scientific method of testing. especially after my recent studies in college. there are so many illnesses, and i think some of them are just bull crap and a lot of people self diognosing, and the pharmacutical companies trying to get money telling you you need this medicine. and i think most of our ailments are in the processed food we eat. i hope i didnt offend anyone, im just saying. my opinion. but this.... this is killing me. when i think back to periods of time in my life where i felt ok for long amounts of time, i think the army, when i was structured and working out every day, and didnt have a period, and when i was pregnant.
i dont know what to do... im so tired of the mood swings. so tired of trying to be OK. i want to give up sometimes. ive wondered if i was bi polar before... but it doesnt quite fit. and i hate the idea of having to take meds the rest of my life... there has to be another way, there has to be. i want a life, to be a good CONSISTENT mother, to maybe marry someday or find a relationship where i dont have to doubt myself because of some mood condition. where i can express my true feelings without someone thinking im having a mood swing. without the anxiety. ugh.... im pretty desperate. any reply is greatly appreciated
I hear ya on the no meds outlook.
I charted my daily symptoms for a year, until I got to really know and understand what was going to happen to me and when. Now I just keep the days of my cycle on my calender so I know where I am in my cycle and when the moods happen, anger, hatefulness, depression, negative thinking, unable to concentrate, fatigue... all the rest of it - I know to equate it to my hormone and brain chemicals - not with real life situations. So even tho I feel like I hate my husband and want to KILL him and just get in my car and drive off in to the wilderness never to have to deal with anyone again... I accept that its my crazy internal crap and walk away instead of yelling. I stay away from people at those times. I make myself go out and do the things I like to do even tho I'm not really enjoying them. Coz I won't let this bitch PMDD rob me of my life. Other times I have to accept I am too overwhelmed by depression and hole up on the couch and watch dvd's or read books to stop myself thinking the neg stuff and do what I can to ignore it until my state changes.
Learn to be who you are instead of fighting yourself. Its too tiring.
But learn to bring out and emphasise the good bits - and starve the bad bits by not giving them credibility and control.
Doesn't work all the time, but its what I do and how I get by.
Hugs n best wishes for you. I'm sure it will change as we get on in life. Nothing really ever stays the same :)
Its accepting the 'new' way I am and working with what I have when I have it, not beating myself up for beig who I am, the way I am.
I agree with Dusty. I need to stop fighting myself, judging myself and feeling so "less-than-others". The other Debbie, the capable, competent, bubbly, active Debbie is the real one. The other is who I am when I am ill. And the disorder is an illness.