Im new to the group. I hate pmdd it sucks. During the 2 weeks I have it I have insomnia, anxiety, anger, and depression. I have more but those are the ones that are the worst. Last night i got probably 2 hours of sleep  feel like I am the crappiest mom I have 3 kids and all I do during this time is scream at them. They are driving me insane right now and have been fighting since 530 this morning it's now almost 830 I want today to be over I want to go in my room and hide and cry. They don't deserve this, I'm really trying to not get mad at them but it's like I can't control my actions. After I yell I take deep breaths and calm down say I'm sorry for yelling, then 2 seconds later they are fighting again. I've tried to explain what happens to my emotions at this time of the month but my oldest is 8 and barely understands. I haven't had suicidal thoughts for a few months, but now they are seeking up on me again. I feel like everyone would be happier without me. I know it is not true and I won't act on it just pops into my head. I don't know what to do, I don't want to feel this way anymore. I take anxiety and depression medication and it works half the month when I'm not pmdding. I needed to vent to people who understand and who won't judge, or say I'm not feeling this way or I'm exaggerating. I jusy want to scream. Sorry this is all over the place.