Ok well not sure how to start this but feel like I am going out of my mind it's just going around in my head, I have ongoing medical problems and as hard as it is I go to my appointments with my mum as she knows about my agoraphobia, but every time I go and think finally something won't hurt any more and and 1 less thing to worry bout I end up feeling worse, it is putting me off even wanting to do it so much, I some times just blurt out to her that it would but better if when I finally get some sleep that I don't wake up. I hate saying it so it also affects her just feel like I am running out of options and strength. I don't like talking bout it I usually write it down but that hasn't helped this time. I feel lost, Has anyone else felt like this?