I have been in so much though the years of raising my children. I did everything that i could and it was never good enough once they became teens. i give and i give and now when i am dying of COPD they have abandoned me.  I still have not gotten my disability yet and live on 200 dollars a month. I try to get my children to help but my one sone has told me that a parent should never have to ask for help, that they should be 100% self sufficiant and a parent is there to take care of them and not the other way around. I have had my grand children taken away several times for speaking up about it and standing up for myself. The only time they come around now is if they need help. And i have never turned them away. Even when it has made me lose everyhting i had worked so hard for. I am only 45 years old and i am now all alone. I never leave my home because i am not able to. If i even dare ask for a ride to the store. im told i can walk my happy but to the store. Even though they know that it hurts my so badly. I have become so depressed that i just dont want to live anymore, but i would never harm myself because 1. i odnt believe in it and 2. because i know they would be even more disapointed in me if i did. and 3. because i want to live and see the world. To do all the things i never got to do. I was a teen mother. I stopped goofing around and did my very best to raise them and keep them safe. I just dont understand what i did to desurve such treatment