PS as I finished writing this, I heard some weird noises that sounded like the dogs, but I put them out. I'm getting goosebumps on my arms, but I don't really feel scared/threatened. This is all really weird to me. But it did bring back one thing from when I was living 40 miles from here ... I had a high wooden fence that surrounded the whole yard. There were latches on the inside to open it, but not on the outside. The back gate opened onto an alley. The fence was at least 6 to 7 feet high and not easy to scramble up (take it from me, that's the sort of stuff I used to love doing!). But every so often, I'd wake up in the morning and find the back gate wide open ... which also didn't make sense, as you'd have to climb the fence to get in ... and nothing ever missing or disturbed. The other neighbors yards would have been way easier as shortcuts. SO I basically left it as someone possibly trying to freak me out. But anyway, don't know if anything has to do with any other thing.

I would also think the animals (2 dogs and 3 cats) would be sensitive to certain types of "energy" and I am not really getting anything like that from them, definitely not on a consistent basis.

Not too wierd. Now, this may sound wierd: It's the 2012 energy.

It's not the end of the world, it's the end of a cycle in time. Time is fractal.

Think of broccoli, there's the big piece, and then snap off a piece of a smaller branch, then take and look at an individual "flower" and now compare how they are all the same shape on a different scale. It is a fractal pattern. That is what is happening now with time.

What events last year would have happened over a period of months is now happening over a week or even a day the closer we get to Dec 21st.

There are a lot of different things going on and the powers that be are distracting us with the disinfo documentaries about wackos that think that the world is going to end in a cataclysm. It's not, keep paying your bills. What is happening is a natural earth cycle coming to an end and a new cycle beginning.

Besides everything happening at once, you may also find that you experience a "shift" in conciousness. Your old life no longer works for you, you rid yourself of any dead-weight that's holding you back, and you decide to make big changes but sit in a state of la-la land at the beginning.

Now, kitty litter is nasty. If there was a cat in the house years ago that used it, the smell may be coming up now that the seasons are starting to change and causing a musty smell. Good luck getting the smell gone! Do you think that there are ghostly smells? Or just sightings with the eyes?

dadda I have noticed that my bedroom smells a bit when it is humid out. I had cats years ago. It is the only carpet left in the house. Anyway, it is the last room I will redo, and I am looking forward to it.

I like the idea of everything speeding up. and wanting to get rid of our dead weight! Lots fo that to get rid of. Now if the world were to end, Maybe we could rent a deserted island and put all our N's on it. then maybe a baby tsunami can come out and nail them.

I didnt know about the 2012 energy stuff... I do feel different too, in a positive way though... a kind of drive and power I never felt to that extent before, even in the low moments. although I just thought it was a combination of emotional maturity after years of struggle and a long relationship with an N I managed to push away...

Dadda, maybe what I say will sound stupid but I am wondering if you're not just exhautsed emotionally? You cant be efficient and motivated whn you re scared, and even less when you've been battling "evil" (in your head or for real) for a long time. It might not be the place... If it really is, maybe try a little experiment and take yourself somewhere where you know you feel safe and relaxed for a while, and see if negativity still feels present...

Hey, I read the responses and I sort of see points to all. Time fascinates me, too. I see it as nothing more than the measure of motion; in my head (and after doing all kinds of weird math to calculate how fast ants would be walking if they were human sized, plus just watching other insects and how they don't even see us accurately (knowing that means we too probably miss big slices of reality "right in front of us")) I view all these different dimensionalities of life, existing in one sense in a shared space, but totally in different "worlds", so to speak ...

and plants, which mostly exist in two different atmospheres, unlike most animals/humans, which exist only in one ... which isn't "technically" true, because most animals/humans locomote and perform the functions plants do differently as a result. I've wondered for years if trees and such "talk to each other"; I've been reading that research indicates that plants do communicate with each other. I'd be fascinated to see the world from their perspective, for a short time ...

and I think about the fact that it is ALWAYS "now", where does the past and future "exist" and etc? What happens to all of our memories when we die? Even if they are stored, there's the law about matter and energy only being changeable in form, not existence ... can a person, choosing evil enough times, end up losing their free will to choose after a time, can they lose their humanity, the essence of it or both? I suppose I think about stuff too much??

I guess it's having seen ESP work, although not "on command", those serendipitous "coincidences" and the FACT, even in my own life, I have seen evil present itself seductively, generating what looks like a sure thing, but if you follow along, it turns out to be illusion. Plus having fallen into some of those N projections and not knowing it for some time. SO I don't discount those as possibilities, at least in some instances, but I don't give it a super amount of weight, either. But you know how if you have something small, like a splinter in your foot or a scratch on your eye, it can just distract you and make your day crazy? SO I don't think it takes much ...

I suppose some of it is exhaustion, plus I am reminded everyday that this will NEVER be "our family's home" and so that's another stickler. And yes, the animals make smells and it drives me nuts ... I need to scrub the living room carpet again, but the dogs will just pee again ... sigh.

I'm feeling a little sorry for myself, plus probably anxiety ... thinking how I had a great job and came back here and how many great jobs and career has gotten screwed up from being here. But because the law is screwed up, it was the only sure way of easing things for my daughters ... just wish I hadn't ended up trusting again ... I guess I am worried that the screwed up law will leave me with lots of legal bills and an ex who claims bankruptcy and laughs as he keeps his word to throw me out as soon as he can legally do so ... divorce law seems unnecessarily screwed up to me (!!)

Livelifenow, you don't know how many times I have wanted to build little walled off enclaves, islands or something to put groups of people in and not let them out ... the ones who want to TELL everyone else (dictate) our lives ... I figure they should start their little Utopia and show the rest of us before shoving it down everyone else's throats!! I can't even imagine what would happen if you put all the Ns (specially the hard-cores) together without any "normals" ...

Crystalcave ... I have been noticing there hasn't been much talk about global warming lately (I found a book the USDA put out in 1946 that stated that in geological time, we had been in a cool period and actually, the Earth was supposed to be getting warmer overall, no mention of cars or greenhouse gases, just the cycles that they have supposedly already measured for 10s of thousands of years). I don't worry much about the world ending or death, I'm just not fond of suffering! But seriously, no it doesn't "work" to be held "hostage" because I have put all my assets (liquid) into the house, our daughters, etc and therefore have to wait on the law and an unreasonable and unfair person to get all their destruction out. And yes, I could "take off". My older daughter is planning to move next month, so that would not be a bad time for me either. CLoser to civilization, for sure!!

And Neodyme, I drove up to the city where I was living before ... and it was nice ... everything close by, even the air just seemed a bit easier. I guess I can't account for his (and his relatives') behavior other than as negative energy and evil and wondering if that is affecting me or just my pent up emotions which I can't act on ... probably both!

Dadda,

As fall inches upon us, animals often come inside and hide unseen. Could the smell be an animal that visits or is trapped in the walls, attic, or basement? Bats, rats, squirrels, and raccoons are the most likely culprits. And, Raccons, with their human-like thumbs can open gates.

The Maya were very scientific and they predicted so many things correctly. I have read the the real scientific translations of Maya writtings do not call for the world to end in December 2012 but, instead, call for it to realign in different ways. Could very well be a positive thing. Global warning is real and will act like a snowball, going slow but then speeding up rapidly. And who knows what the moon's pull on the earth may be doing on the planet and on individual humans. I applaud your inquisitiveness. It is a lot of fun and very informative to research and ponder all this things. Hope you can get rid of the kitty litter smell. Have you tried Fabreze or even just boiling lemons? Good Luck.

I've been using lots of "smell stuff" I did find a little "pile" behind a plant ... hope that removal of that will help.

I certainly have not read the Mayan writings, but like Y2K and whatever the "flavor of the month" happens to be, there is ALWAYS a tragedy waiting to decimate us all ... some people make money while it is "hot".

And yes, of course, even without humans and cars (and cows, with their methane haha), there are cycles of warming and cooling. I think most systems seem to try to restore homeostasis or a "harmony of parts", so I figure whether there is a plague or change in the weather or whatever, there are corrective reactions taking place all the time (for every action ...)

I know the Earth and atmosphere isn't a purely closed system, but I sometimes wonder how long, with us sending our constituent elements eternally (for all we know) into outer space as satellites, etc and accumulation of things over time of meteor fragments, etc ... how that would eventually affect the whole system.

Actually, I find it pretty amazing how advanced in some sciences ancient people were, especially without the luxuries we take for granted ... computers, even basic writing tools, printing.

And oh yes, there will be mice in the basement, for sure. And frogs. And they always crawl into a box of something to die. Yuck!

I was recently reading a study that indicates barometric pressure can affect heart arrhythmias and women are more prone to the effects; also that men with antisocial personality disorder and those prone to violence are likely to have a serum cholesterol level below 180 which cannot be accounted for by diet, medications or alcohol use, etc.

Bats are not cool ... we had a girl die from rabies a couple of years back here ... she was bitten by a bat, but the bite wasn't noticeable. If ever you come into contact with a bat or one is found flying around in a room where someone is sleeping/elderly or child, it is wise to get checked out as a bite will not necessarily be felt or noticeable. Rabies exposure can be treated prior to symptoms appearing, but once it becomes apparent, it is nearly always fatal.

But ... it does seem a person could live a very long life and never run out of fascinating things to learn and ponder; unfortunately, a lot of paperwork and stuff usually takes up more time and importance than need be. Oh well