Sorry to hear of the added problems. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you. With all those car problems, i'd be thinking of a bicycle. But then the snow would even kill that idea. You are a fighter!!! A survivor!!!! Despite all the odds, my money is on you. Courage. Hugs.

I made it through work; one person decided to pull out in front of me ... what a joy that was! Hard skid, wasn't even going fast but doesn't matter. What sucks ... nobody should have to be going through what I am ... I know, life isn't "fair" but one more reason I WILL be fighting with others to change things regarding "family" court. If it weren't for that black-hearted unethical attorney, too I doubt I'd be in this situation. I do not know where they get these scummy "professionals" ... nurses and lawyers or why they are being protected.

I am emotionally exhausted, though and ready to call it a day, even though there are a lot of things I SHOULD do.

Remember to take care of YOU, you are important and if you're exhausted try and take a rest. Life seems to test us all the time and the most ridiculous times, you know, the times where we just don't need it because our plates are more then full they're overflowing. Is there any way you can find different transportation until you get the car issues resolved. Maybe car pooling? Do people still do that? Thinking of you, hoping you're feeling better.

I had multiple used cars totaled in a matter of a few years, weird freak stuff too, hit and run, car parked on street and driver falls asleep hits it and pushes out into traffic, one car impounded $800 for being parked on street for 3 days in a row (in front of my house!). In between I would have to be carless while I searched for another used car I could afford & couldn't afford a rental car. I would miss the opportunity to work as much too because the buses don't run indefinitely outside of the city.

I'm reminded of this when I read your posts pertaining to the car troubles and I remember the insane "where is a canyon I can scream into?" frustration! I picture you there doing this work on your car and I'm thinking "good for you" it makes me think of my beloved grandmother, unstoppable feminist mechanic for boeing during WW2. Then I feel really frustrated for you because sometimes car stuff is the worst, we're sooo dependent on them. Then I stop and think, I hope one day when a lot of this is behind you you'll see what an amazing job you did taking all this on. The car, the lawyers, the bills, the balancing, you seem like something of a warrior.

I'm sorry you are going through all this Dadda. I know I'm scattered at the moment so maybe I go too far outside the main topic. I guess I just want to say I do hope you get some rest and I hope soon some peace but that warrior woman inside of you is persevering regardless of all of these outside forces and I think through tears, rages and laughter she's going to carry you through it.

No, I liked the way you talked about it, Faith ... I always am wondering why all the soldiers and missionaries are leaving the country ... we have plenty of work and enemies within our borders and people that need to be converted to kindness, if nothing else! I remember reading that women did a major part by their working, tending gardens and a lot of other things, during WWII, that helped not only win that war, but also ushered in an era of relative prosperity or maybe I should say economic stability and opportunity. I know that the interstate highway system was started after the war and really had to have changed the country ... I know there were more businesses in the small town near here before the US highway was built just north of the town, before that, people could ride the train into the next (small) city. But the businesses (and job opportunities!) shut down after the highways were built and the car was more and more a necessity of life. Just figures that he and parents were so insistent we settle here for "support"; I was so busy working and taking care of our small children, I never thought about the ramifications or what would happen if they turned out to be liars!

I'm so grateful for the "shoring up" I get; even the feeling of nobility that the fight takes on. I used to work pretty long and hard days, I know I am no shirker and I very seldom ask for help until the case is desperate. SO I know that if I say, "It's hard", it IS. After this is all over, I will have nothing but credibility from having gone through what I have. I like the imagery, because I don't know about all of you, but I can only wonder about "heroes" from the past (I like people like Dorothea Dix, Florence Nightingale, MLK, Harriet Tubman and a host of others ...) and wonder how many "dark nights of the soul" they must have faced in trying to make a positive difference ... not like I'm a hero, but the imagery does help!

And KassandraDee, I fell asleep shortly after my last post and slept through the night (except for hearing thunder, at which point I got up and unplugged all the computer stuff! Then, back to bed. To the WEIRDEST dreams. I had some nightmares I can't remember, but I also had all these naked little babies (that were mine) but I couldn't remember when I had given birth to them all. I had to call the doctor's office and kept thinking I'd be in trouble for not "registering" them ... one had all kinds of teeth and it seems there was something wrong with her. Very weird ... plus getting on and off boats with my youngest daughter and running into guys who wanted to know why we were on their boats but didn't challenge us. I at least feel rested again ... thank goodness.

I am going to call the pastor and see if he can help me before I have to work and look up WHY the hydraulics mightn't be kicking in. I guess the thing that is the hardest to take is that I am "running a race" in which the cheating is becoming more and more apparent, especially the level in the past. If I was in the Olympics or anything high-level, these folks that have done what they have would have been called to the carpet LONG ago. And so, it doesn't seem right that there is a different standard for us "little folk" ... any of us ... but only persistence and continuing on will change that!

And I just learned that the local phone service is past due ... they want $227; the long distance has been cut off for weeks now, making it difficult, because the local service doesn't even extend to the "city" 15 miles away! All in violation of Court Order .... and I am REALLY starting to wonder that my attorney is doing ... nothing.