Be strong. We're hear for you.

(((HUGS))) I know how scary that is. It is great that it scared you so much! The fact that you didn't do it and sought help means that is what you are likely to do if you get to that point again. It lessens the chance that you will actually kill yourself. Please take comfort in that. I have been there too and I am willing to bet that we all have. My counselor told me that having suicidal thoughts is a coping strategy for people who have been through trauma. It is very common and completely normal. It is a coping strategy because you know that if the pain gets to be too much, then you can end it. You know that there is a way out.

The biggest thing that we all need to remember is that while we may feel like we are completely broken or literally going crazy, it is not true. We are reacting in a normal and expected way to an abnormal event. Yes, we all have healing to do, but there is nothing wrong with any of us. Learning that in counseling made a huge difference in my progress. I have stopped feeling bad about my reactions to things and keep working on managing or changing of the ones that are unhealthy.

Keep posting. We are here for you.

I'm glad you felt comfortable enough with us to talk about it here. And I second everything Tiasmom has said. We've been there. No judgment here. Please talk it through in this group. We will all get through this together.(Hugs)

Hi, Hearts! I am so glad you found this group. Its been two years for me and the depression comes back in waves, but I have a counselor to help me through... and the friends in this group. I remember when this first started for me... people would say the most horrible things to me. Nobody knows what to say! But you can't blame them. Sex offense is so grossly misunderstood. I don't think you really understand what it means until you are in the thick of some kind of involvement and then it takes time to make sense of it.

After two years, I still struggle. We all do. That is why we need each other. So few understand. This is a place where we do. Many, many hugs to you.

Peek

I agree with what everyone here said. After I found out - they had to take my meds away from me because I was so prone to going exactly where you were headed. I couldn't see the pain and guilt ever stopping and I couldn't see any other way to make it stop. Has it stopped? No. Is it better? yes. And if I had gone through with killing myself, I realized that I would have let him have the ultimate power over my life - I would have ended it because of something HE did. I finally realized I didn't want to let him steal that from me too - he had already stolen too much.

Do whatever it takes to get you through the dark night - there is a dawn out there somewhere. Keep talking to us and a counselor (or whoever). These ladies are great listeners.

Thank u n I am doing much better!!! :)

Glad you are doing better! I know the feeling of not wanting to wake up, you just want the pain to end. But it WILL get better. Move forward one day at a time, cliche, I know, but it is true.