Motherless Daughters Community Group
For any daughter who has lost their mother, whether through Death (if it's been one day ago or 40 years ago) or Abandonment, (i.e.-drug abuse, mental illness, physical or emotional abuse, etc.) and is working through the grief process. This group provides unconditional support and understanding from women who have also lost their Moms and who truly care.
Hi All,
One of those holiday posts.... This is the first Xmas for me and my brother (19) without our Mom. I have tried to piece together some sort of Xmas for my brother buying him sweatshirts, cologne etc. that my Mom would have gotten him. I have struggled so much financially its not even funny (I was out of work caring for my Mom without pay ) My credit cards are zooming and I just keep getting deeper and deeper. I just feel like I am in this zombie state walking around just existing going to work, driving home, making dinner, and then just repeating the same stuff everyday. The joy in my life is gone.... I don't think I will ever feel happy or joy again. Just venting sorry - I feel so lost and alone without her....
Marci
One of those holiday posts.... This is the first Xmas for me and my brother (19) without our Mom. I have tried to piece together some sort of Xmas for my brother buying him sweatshirts, cologne etc. that my Mom would have gotten him. I have struggled so much financially its not even funny (I was out of work caring for my Mom without pay ) My credit cards are zooming and I just keep getting deeper and deeper. I just feel like I am in this zombie state walking around just existing going to work, driving home, making dinner, and then just repeating the same stuff everyday. The joy in my life is gone.... I don't think I will ever feel happy or joy again. Just venting sorry - I feel so lost and alone without her....
Marci
Marci, the firsts of everything seem to be the most difficult and I am truly sorry that you are feeling this way right now. I was like that last christmas - my first without my mum.
And you have the added pressure of finanicial struggles which you certainly dont need at this time of your life.
I know that it is very easy for me to say, but please try and realise that you will start to feel better. We all do it in different time frames. There is no set time!
I hear everything that you are saying and I just wish right now I could give you a hug and tell you everything is going to be alright. And yes everything IS going to be alright. it just takes time.
For some reason, even when we are at our lowest, we just slowly evolve into some semblance of the person we once were, and things start to fall into place. I guess right now from what you say that you are running on auto pilot....
Honey, we all care about you here so please keep on coming and sharing with us.
Love to you
Sam
too. But I hope with time I will start to enjoy things and I hope that for you too. Im thinking of you
Hugssssssss Deb