What does your faith tell you? I think you will heal, but of course, it takes time, and each individual is different. My first thought when I read your post was would your mom want you to let your diabetes get out of control? Wouldn't she want you to take care of yourself?

I haven't endured anything in my 55 years that was as painful as losing my mom. I know your pain. I would give the world to have her back, but I can't. However, I do believe she's watching over me from Heaven, and I want to do her proud. That means taking care of myself and being good to myself. So if you can't take care of you for you right now, then do it for your mom.

Many, many hugs to you,
Carol

Donna,
I agree with Carolsue, You should try to take better care of yourself, your Mom would want you to.
Maybe you can go to Diabetes support groups and learn better how to control your diabetes with diet and excerise? I am not sure..all I know is that you need to be around people who can help support you through this health issue.
I will keep you in my prayers Donna

Raquel

Yes Donna you will heal.

And yes you need to take care of yourself. When you are OK everything else seems to fall into place.

I am also sure that your mum would not want you to be feeling this way. Sure you miss her and want her back! WOW - that is so normal. But sadly, that cannot be, so try each day to find ONE positive.. Write it down, say it out loud!

Surround yourself with POSITIVE people....

Time does heal........

We are all here for you Donna.
Lots of love
Sam

You wil heal! but you life is forever changed,take you time about the ashes,take care if yourself first,try to do some to help someone else,volenteer,giving to others helps you,love bluebird

It does take time, but just like the other girls said you will heal. Take care of yourself and get your health where it needs to be. Some people take longer to heal then others, you can make it though! Keep in mind, your mom is in your heart. And always will be. Nobody can take the memories away from you that you two shared together. It's going to be ok, and you will make it through everything. Your in my prayers.

I wish I knew the answer. A year and a half and still in pain. Heal or learn to live with the loss I think is more like it. I don't know if my wound of loosing my mom will ever completely heal. It will always be there and resurface. How I learn to cope and live without her is the challenge I think. You are not alone in your grief. Huge hugs.

Hi Donna, it takes time to heal. You don't ever stop missing your mom, but along the way you learn to cope. I ask you if you have tried journaling. I started after my mom died, I would write letters to her and poems.
That helped me, by releasing those feelings and my thoughts. Nobody else needs to see it.Its been almost 8 years for me and I still miss my mom. I talk to her now, I know it sounds weird. But it makes me feel better, so thats all that matters to me. Your mom gave birth to your body, you were a gift from God to her. You need to take care of her gift"You". Do that for yourself and honor her. God Bless you with peace and hope for better days. Joy

I understand how you feel about saying your mother has "died" as I still use the word "passed". It is hard. As Rachele70 said, learning to cope is the real challenge - at least for me it is. Get over it - never I am sure, but learn to live with it. I am sure that your mother would not want you to be ill. Take care of yourself. Diabetes is not something you should take lightly - I know as it runs in my family. Yes, it took me some months to realize that mom would not want me sick, but I finally did as I would keep hearing her in my mind giving me heck for not being good to myself. Take good care and I hope you can find some peace. Sharon

Donaa, yes, you will heal. It will take loads of time as it will for all of us. But life is different and it will never be the same. So I will not pump sunshine and act like everything is going to be hunky dory. But know you are not alone. You are, however, letting your Mom down by not taking care of yourself. She would never want you to allow diabetes to ruin your life. My Mom was a Type 2 Diabetic. It ruined her life. Please, please do not allow that to happen to you. We care and want you to be healthy. Love-Holly

I agree with Holly. Healing from this type of loss takes a lot of time. I never thought I would hurt this much at the 6 month mark, but I do. Your mom would want you to take care of yourself, so do it in her honor. As far as the ashes go, wait until you are stronger to decide what to do.

Time does heal,, but a long time. It's been a year for me, I still miss her so much sometimes. I am out of owrk - I hate it as being around others, involved in work helps me to concentrateon other things. You will heal but never forget her, why would we want to? Love and prayers to you, Nancy

A year and a half ,feels like forever when you are grieving so hard. I can't even imagine thinking I will grieve like this for years to come. I hope it get's better. All I know, are a few OK days and a whole lot of bad days. Hope sometimes feel lost but I try to grasp it when a little comes my way. Taking care of yourself is probrably a big one, because it means nurturing yourself in a way the fast paced world is not used to. It means caring for you and not feeling guilty about it. It means climbing in to bed for some alone time, when you have tons of housework to do. It means doing something you enjoy for yourself. Going to your doctor and keeping up with your health. All the things, we as women put ourselves last on the list, and when we do them for ourself, we fill guilty.

I'd like to get to a point where I can remember my mom with positive memories because their were so many. However, right now I just look at the pictures, smile and then feel sad and empty because she is gone. Will I ever look at them with joy again? Will I heal? Will any of us? Or will we grieve for years and have to learn how to live and accept they are not with us physically anymore. How can we hold on to them in our hearts?