Motherless Daughters Community Group
For any daughter who has lost their mother, whether through Death (if it's been one day ago or 40 years ago) or Abandonment, (i.e.-drug abuse, mental illness, physical or emotional abuse, etc.) and is working through the grief process. This group provides unconditional support and understanding from women who have also lost their Moms and who truly care.
I have no idea how I'm going to make it through the holidays without my mom. I lost her just this past March and up until then haven't had to spend a single holiday or birthday without her. I feel like it's doubly hard because her birthday is just before Christmas and mine is right after. I'm honestly still so scared of facing the world without her and heartbroken that she won't be here for all my future big life moments. I just feel so much irrational anger towards people who talk about spending Christmas with their moms and what they're getting them as presents. It doesn't seem fair that they get to be so happy while I just feel so broken.
chil234
So sorry about your loss. The holidays are always bad. I'm an only child, married with a husband, kids and g/kids but I feel so alone without my mom. My mom used to say we're only he on borrowed time. This is still new and open to all those emotions. The first year is, I felt, the most excruciating heartache and deep hurt within my heart and soul. When my mom died, I died too; a part of me went with her. I can assure you that excruciating heartache and pain does diminish during that first year. The emotions are unbelievable. I could never see how that pain would ever diminish but it did. My mom passed June 9, 2011, and the holidays are different, they'll never be the same again. I'm still lonely and alone even tho I have everyone around me but when they all go home. I am so very alone. No one can ever take her place; I'm empty but you will be able to move through it. I still get mad when someone says to me you need to MOVE ON and I say I will MOVE THROUGH it the best I can but i'm not moving on. This is just me I don't like the words moving on because I feel as though i'm letting her go. most people would say you have to move on. NO I don't, I'm MOVING THROUGH it and that's helps me in every day life.
chil234
My mom passed june 9, 2011, and her b/d is 12 minutes to 12 on new years eve. i'm an only child with a husband, children and g/children but I still feel all alone. the holidays are the worse. they are with us and especially at very important times. i'm polish and for g/mom its babci in polish but everyone called her BA, well my g/son just got married sept. 3, this year, and just like everyone else we ALL wondered if she will be there to see this special event in our family. To "EVERYONE'S" surprise, they had a trolley, beautiful day we all got onto the trolley and got off in front of the church AND we started to take pictures again well to everyone's surprise the license plate started with BA------. we knew at that time it was a sign from her, when least expected by all of us, that definitely she saw everything that was going on her great g/sons wedding. the first year is very, very hard with the deepest hurt in your heart and deep in your soul. I never thought and couldn't see that excruciating pain going away. the heartache and pain will, for me, always be there BUT the excruciating heartache and pain did diminish, but my emptiness is still there and no one can ever fill that emptiness. I don't like when someone says to me you need to MOVE ON and I say to everyone who says that to me, I will never MOVE ON "BUT" I will MOVE THROUGH IT AS BEST AS I CAN. I do know they may not be HERE on EARTH but i've had spiritual experiences and have NO DOUBT we never DIE, we just move on to the other side. Some day we will ALL be TOGETHER AGAIN not ever to part again.my son had a dream it was him and my mom (I call that a visitation) no one else was in that dream and my son was very, very angry cause she was like a second mother to him, they were very, very close and she said to him BELIEVE IN JESUS, he's our Saviour and the son of GOD. we will all be together again when its our turn. My mom used to say to me all the time, we're only here on BORROWED TIME and it's true. May GOD help you thru this most excruciating hurtful and painful time in your life. My mom also used to say to me, cause she knew I'd have a hard time. I know you'll cry, hurt, feel empty etc but just BE HAPPY I'M NO LONGER IN PAIN.She will send you a sign she is okay when least expected, look for the FEATHER, you will, in time, when least expected see that FEATHER. tc
Mace1979
my mom was murdered 12 yrs ago,actually next month will be 13 yrs. Dealing with the pain never gets easier. I have had visitations from my mom also. it is brief but i can still feel her around me
LadyJack
My mom passed away from breast cancer 2.5 years ago and I still struggle......holidays, birthdays.........so what you feel is normal. Its not that it gets easier, you just learn to manage the pain......for me, it was about starting my own traditions while still finding a way to honor her.......using her decorations with my own, but not dwelling on the shitty moments. Just having them and then moving forward.
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