Motherless Daughters Community Group
For any daughter who has lost their mother, whether through Death (if it's been one day ago or 40 years ago) or Abandonment, (i.e.-drug abuse, mental illness, physical or emotional abuse, etc.) and is working through the grief process. This group provides unconditional support and understanding from women who have also lost their Moms and who truly care.
Hi,
I am new to this group and I am so glad that I found it.
As a small child I knew that there was something different with my relationship with my mother. I felt it to my bones. Although, I could not at that time put my finger on it I just new in my heart that I did not feel loved.
As I was growing up I saw things that she did that no child should be exposed to. For some reason it never seemed to bother her that I was aware of the things that she was doing. When I would confront her she would tell me that I was crazy or that I did not see what she was doing. It might be her taking pills, taking pills that where not hers or telling a lie, there just never seemed to be an end to what she would do.
When I was almost 15 she walked out of my life. She took my brother with her. She had been seeing another man behind my Daddy's back and I knew about it. Once again when I confronted her she told me that I was crazy.The day she walked out on us she never looked back.
When I became an adult I did everything I could to try and fix what was wrong between us. I also had a daughter and for some reason she became obsessed with her. Whenever she could she would intefere with my relationship with her and it seemed to bother her that I had what I thought was a great bond with my daughter. I worked up my nerve and decided to talk with her about the past and why it was that she did not seem to love me. She looked at me and said I just never had room in my heart for you or to love you. As devastated as I was I now knew that what I had always thought was true. Still even with a broken heart I wanted a realtionship with her. Yet she was still doing all that she could to undermine things with my daughter. She did win and my daughter walked away from me to be with her, that was 10 years ago.
At this point I had to try and save myself and to heal from everything that I had lost. It has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through and there are still days where I would give anything and everything to have a mother in my life. There are so many times where I want to have a mother to share my life with.
Knowing that she never loved me or wanted me has changed me forever. The break in my heart will never heal. I am a motherless daughter and the road traveled has been a long and winding one.
Thank you for allowing me to share.
I am new to this group and I am so glad that I found it.
As a small child I knew that there was something different with my relationship with my mother. I felt it to my bones. Although, I could not at that time put my finger on it I just new in my heart that I did not feel loved.
As I was growing up I saw things that she did that no child should be exposed to. For some reason it never seemed to bother her that I was aware of the things that she was doing. When I would confront her she would tell me that I was crazy or that I did not see what she was doing. It might be her taking pills, taking pills that where not hers or telling a lie, there just never seemed to be an end to what she would do.
When I was almost 15 she walked out of my life. She took my brother with her. She had been seeing another man behind my Daddy's back and I knew about it. Once again when I confronted her she told me that I was crazy.The day she walked out on us she never looked back.
When I became an adult I did everything I could to try and fix what was wrong between us. I also had a daughter and for some reason she became obsessed with her. Whenever she could she would intefere with my relationship with her and it seemed to bother her that I had what I thought was a great bond with my daughter. I worked up my nerve and decided to talk with her about the past and why it was that she did not seem to love me. She looked at me and said I just never had room in my heart for you or to love you. As devastated as I was I now knew that what I had always thought was true. Still even with a broken heart I wanted a realtionship with her. Yet she was still doing all that she could to undermine things with my daughter. She did win and my daughter walked away from me to be with her, that was 10 years ago.
At this point I had to try and save myself and to heal from everything that I had lost. It has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through and there are still days where I would give anything and everything to have a mother in my life. There are so many times where I want to have a mother to share my life with.
Knowing that she never loved me or wanted me has changed me forever. The break in my heart will never heal. I am a motherless daughter and the road traveled has been a long and winding one.
Thank you for allowing me to share.
Much love and hugs to you!
~Kirsten...xx
I am so sorry for what happened to you . I have a mother who didnt raise me .But she went on to have 3 other
children. It really hurt to know .I was the one she didnt want. I have tried to have a relationship with her for years now. Each time it just hurts more to see Her and hear what she does with my brothers and sister. how she is a grandmother to thier children and I cant help thinking about how she doesnt even know what my children names are. I will never get over not having a mother.and I cant seem to give up on trying to understand why a mother doesnt love a child. even at 50 years old now this still makes me feel like a little girl needing a mothers love.I do envy those people who have a mother that they can talk to spend mothersday with go shopping and just to know you have thier love . I have always been alone and it has been very hard.