My Mama left in January...I understand. I am so sorry for your loss. My whole identity has been rocked too. I send you a big hug....

I am so sorry too.. I feel a lot like you do. My Mom passed away two months ago. How to make it through the holidays.. I just don't know. How to make it through the rest of my life without her, I just don't know. God willing, I have half my life left to live. But the thought that it is without her is just so hard to take. I understand what you are saying about feeling like you are just not the same person. And you, also, Charity Laurel. I feel a lot like that. She was my best friend and the one I shared everything with. Have exciting news, call Mom, have sad news, call Mom, need advice, call Mom. It's just so hard not having her here.

Thanks to both of you. I'm not feeling as lonely today (some days are better than others). Sometimes, I really do feel like she is around, even though I can't see her or call her. Sometimes I think of all the good luck I have and things working out well and I like to think she has a hand in those things. I know she loves me and I love her and that will always be true, she is my angel.

So sorry for your loss. It will be 5 yrs since I lost my mom Jun 9, 2011. I still feel the emptiness, loneliness and still those tears come from time to time. The holidays are the worse. One thing is true, when you lose a loved one, everything changes. I'm not the same person I was before, sometimes I think I can't believe I'm still walking the face of this earth without her and, sometimes, feel I don't know how much more of this emptiness and loneliness I can take. One thing my mom used to say to me that some day we will all be together not EVER to leave each others side again and that keeps me going and she also told me I know you'll cry but just remember be happy for me I have no more pain, so I try to hold on to those words. Sometimes our loved one, this is one sign of many, leave us a FEATHER somewhere when they know we will spot it and know they are with us. Look for the feather, it will be around when least expected. tc and I pray that God will help you through this hurtful and painful time. tc

So sorry to all of you, takes me back to those early months without Mum. Like chil234 it will be 5 years since I lost my Mum in March this year. It feels like forever ago, and just yesterday at the same time. I spent years waiting to get to some kind of finish line with grief and get 'back to my old self' but as time goes on I realise that I will always miss Mum deeply and painfully, but life goes on and happiness and joy come back as well. It's ok to feel lost, of course you do, I still feel lost without her - losing our Mums is like losing the roof over our heads. Be kind and loving to yourself, you are going through an incredibly difficult time. If you can, reach out to those around you who can support you, people close to you often really want to help you, but don't know how. Give yourself permission and time to feel whatever comes up without judgement - this might be the hardest one - in a culture that doesn't know what to do with people who are grieving. Your body and heart know the way to healing, trust in that - sending you loving rainbows from oz xo

I loss my angel mom in March '15 -she was my everything.Yesterday I was so emotional,I still cant go into her room (she lived with us)We had a beautiful realationship ,a spiritual one.I know we will meet again

Lost mine in February of 2010. She was my best friend, to say the least. Losing ma gave me an identity crisis, I didn't know who I was in this world without her. When I say this to you, it might not make sense but trust me, it gets better...or less worse. The wound heals up on the outside but it comes back to haunt you every now and then. Embrace it, cry your heart out and return back to normal life....that's how it has been for last 6 years...for me.

I got married without her, something that I thought would never be possible. Now that I'm 6 weeks pregnant, there's no one I would rather talk to than that one person, who could have made everything better. I've been feeling down for a couple of days and nothing I do, seems to lift my mood up.

However, I know I will conquer this, just like other times and enjoy my life with my amazing husband and the one that's coming. This is life sweetheart, we will never stop loving our parents but we eventually move on....

Please give yourself time and space. Don't court grief, but don't shoo it away either. It will be a part of your life, just like the lovely memories...

Hugs and Love
J