My name is Holly and I’m 16 years old and I’ve been in a committed relationship since I was 13 with the same person ,his name is Jacob and at the time he’s 20 years old our birthdays are 5 days apart I know the age gap but anyways here’s my story ..... I had never done anything as much as kissed someone until I started dating Jacob he had a dark past and I still was into him anyways of course we began talking and dating and I lied to my parents and they ended up finding out and my dad said he wanted to meet him and he’s the first guy I’ve brouhht to meet my family so it was nerve wrecking but my dad loved him so all was well , he had came over and one day I’m at work and I get a call that my boyfriend is being taken to jail so of course I started to freak out and I got home got money on a debt card so he was able to Call me and we had the jail mail accounts set up he was locked up for 2 months well it was my exempt days at school and he went with me dress shopping for my cousins weekend that was that Saturday it was 2 days before the end of freshman year it was on May 15th when I lost my virginity to him he was gentle and supportive and took care of me and I felt so much closer to him and my parents had no idea and had this hatred toward him for getting arrested so I couldn’t see him any longer and my parents are like drill Sargent strict so I decided to sneak out and see him several times well we’d been having sex a lot because it was just so easy to sneak out and be alone well i began having pregnancy symptoms took 6 test all were negative I went to the hospital for a pregnancy test it was also negative the symptoms increased and a little later I kept feeling what felt like a little cricket running a cross my belly id gained weight and continued taking test still all negative even went to my family doctor who said my pregnancy test had a faint line but refused to give me and ultrasound or order one and she told me I wasn’t pregnant since she tested three more samples of urine and ended up giving me the depo shot saying it was my hormones because of how crazy my period was well post shot for a month and the nausea and headaches were out of this world and so many other things began happening fast forward to a little over a month on the shot I’ve been sicker then imaginable and it was a Thursday and I started spotting first period I had in the last 6 months and spotty Friday well nothing Saturday through Monday night and I started hurting some and when I woke up bleeding had increased cramps were severe but with perfect attendance skipping school hasn’t been an option and I go to school end up crying in pain take some medicine it’s not phasing these cramps I got out of school and went to my sisters and they got worse and I was joking and said “I feel like I’m in labor about to pop a baby out at anytime “ we laughed and just went on with our nights and about an hour later I was in debilitating pain so I laid down with a heating pad screaming and crying and I grasped the covers and had the heating pad between my legs and ended up feeling something which I thought it’d just passed a clot no big deal I went to pee and there’s my baby all ten fingers and toes and you could see everything with my baby I went and told my parents who had thought I was a Virgin because I obviously lied to them and I got rushed to the er and they sent it to pathology and confirmed it was products of conception this has been 6 days ago and I’m at my breaking point some how I feel like it’s my fault or worrying about how my boyfriend feels or what my family thinks it’s almost been a week I can’t eat , or anything else I’ve gotten so depressed and have no idea how to cope with this . Someone please help me .im broken