I've been crying all weekend. My Friday ultrasound showed only 1 big follie and a bunch of small ones. They asked if I wanted to go ahead with retrieval for 1 egg, I said no. So I cancelled and said we'd try on our own. The nurse said I should consider other treatment services. WTF? I still got eggs and I am not ready for the go get a donor speech yet! She said "you had 4/5 cancellations." Total heartbreak. Going to meet with doc next week-yes they are making me wait to regroup. I have 1 more paid ivf with them so I was hoping for a different protocol and 1 more try. Also made a consult with a 2nd clinic next week. I am trying to stay positive although I'm on the brink of tears...
I am so so sorry! If you have one more paid IVF, I don't understand why they aren't at least letting you try it! I hope that your meeting with the doctor goes much better and they are ready to give it another solid try with you!
The longer I do this the more I realize that there is just no rhyme or reason to any of it! The 'life plan' we had as a couple has flown out the window so long again... and we are just piecing it together as we ride this crazy roller coaster! I am a very spiritual person (thank goodness) and know that it is not my timing that dictates any of this. I can find peace in that.
I hope that either your current doctor or your next doctor see all of the potential that you bring to the table and get you to that next step in this process!!
Ugh, I am so sorry and I totally get the disappointment and is sucks, no other way around it. Ultimately, it is your decision though, you have another round paid for and if you believe that is what you want to do, then you have every right to use it. Get your second opinion and then make a decision that is right for your family. Also, take time to wallow and feel whatever you need to feel first, then make the decision. We are always here for you to bounce ideas off of too! Sending positive vibes your way!!
The longer I do this the more I realize that there is just no rhyme or reason to any of it! The 'life plan' we had as a couple has flown out the window so long again... and we are just piecing it together as we ride this crazy roller coaster! I am a very spiritual person (thank goodness) and know that it is not my timing that dictates any of this. I can find peace in that.
I hope that either your current doctor or your next doctor see all of the potential that you bring to the table and get you to that next step in this process!!
I've come to realise this process will always throw you down a path you didn't expect or even know was possible. Hoping you get better news next week.