Hello everyone,

I have been married for almost 16 years now, June will make it 16 and I'm trying to hold on until then. Last year was the toughest year of my life. From losing my job, to losing my dad. Then come my house and my car. To top it off, the devil attacks my husband and still under attack. My home was in foreclosure and we were able to sell for full price and pays off our debts. Soon after that my husband started acting up. We got into it one day and I left for two days. He had move back home and I thought we were going to work things out, but no he had his own plans. One day I came home, and my daughter was gone, so I ask the oldest one for her and she said she went to the pool with daddy and his friend. I walk to the pool and when I got there, there he was with this chick sitting next to him like boyfriend and girlfriend. I pull him aside to talk to him, I went off and I slap him. He moves out that day and never came back until a month ago. We spend the whole holidays without him for the first time. It was sad. Although he moves back, he's not here only his clothes are here. That girl that I spoke off earlier that's who he spends all time and I believe she is pregnant now. God don't like ugly; he is paying for what he done to me. The girl is a freaking crack head and a prostitute. Just last year October she went to jail for that. I believe he met her right after that. (I have become my own PI) That girl have stab him, bite marks all over him and he claim that she be fighting him in front of people. And that’s who he chooses to be with instead of his wife. I have tried so hard to work things out with him but guess what his heart is no longer with me. He has shown me that he doesn’t love me anymore. I don't know what she did to him, but he is sprung. I am at my last resort right now and the only thing I see for me to do is to file for a divorce. I don't know for whatever reason he keeps tell me let's go talk to someone, but he's not making the effort to do so. He keeps saying that he doesn’t need it, I do. I feel deep down he doesn’t want to get a divorce; at the same time, he wants to do his dirt and I refuse to be the side chick when I’m supposed to be your wife.

He keeps telling me that he is not messing with her, but since I know she's homeless he's been letting her stay in his working truck. He's a truck driver by the way. what I realize he was doing when he inside his truck he would not call me, but when his out of it that's when he calls. He tried to tell me that she was not with him. I wanted to see for myself, last week Friday I decided to follow him to his job. I made it there before him. He left home at 7pm that night and he did not show up until 8:30. I sat there for an hour before he showed up. When he pulls up, I followed him inside and he notice me right away. He did not stay, he left because he that you know what in his truck and he did not want me to see. I follow him wherever he was going. I know he had to come back, so I followed him. He eventually drove back, and we got there, I said let me in the truck, He would not let me. I was holding on the door so he doesn’t close it, but I quickly had to move my hand so he wouldn't slam it. He locks the door so I would not go in. As I walk away, he quickly got in and lock the door. I step up on the doorstep and told him to let me in, he told me to get off, I did not get off. He took off with me hanging on that truck door, I could have got hurt or kill that day. I was screaming for him to let me down he kept on driving. He finally let me off about 8 to 10 miles down from where my car was. I had to walk back. I realize that he's not my husband anymore and he don't care about me. He come by every 2 to 3 days and when he come, he stays for like 30 minutes or sometimes up to 4 hours. The saddest thing is that I still wanted to work thing out with him, but now I must though it up and file for a divorce. I don't want to be like him, messing around while marry. I will divorce him before I get someone else. He knows I don't have any problem getting someone. I just don't want to.

Thank you for reading.

I'm open for any suggestions.