I have been married almost 2 years my husband is seven years younger than me he is 33 ever sense we been together I have felt like he is flirty with younger women. And I talk to him about it and he denies it every time. I know they check him out he has a lot of tattoos he's cute and they like that but sometimes I see him look too it really bothers me. We got into a issue once about his ex cause I noticed he had pictures of her still. and I said something about his ex being big now and he started to insult me. But what he said was very detailed. He started with your old and ugly and you don't even look good when you try to look good. Then he started on my body about my ass and my boobs everything. I been depressed for three months badly because of this. I have always thought he had feeling for his ex that's what the argument was about. But he says he doesnt. I'm trying to figure out if he meant all these things he said. My heart is crushed by his words I have a hard time even looking at him now.

I don't know if he said it cause he does have feelings for her and my words hurt his feeling. Or if he has thought that the whole time and was finally getting it off his cheast. Either way not good for me loving your ex hurts as much as the words. One time we argued and he knows I had a hysterectomy and can't have kids but very much want one with him. In the argument he said "at least another woman will be able to give me kids" then he laughed when I cried about it. He told me he was trying to hurt me. So yeah he does that. But the detail he used with the insists makes me believe he really meant them about my looks. Plus I catch him staring at younger women. His ex was 10 years younger than me and the one I think he still loves is 4 years younger. All I know is everything in me changed I can't get ready and feel good. I would rather go alone cause he ruins my confidence I think he thinks I'm ugly. It's bad depression now getting worse and I can't tell anyone cause it's embarrassing what he said. Idk what to do about it. Why would he say that. He said because it is what I believe and I don't believe him when he says beautiful. He's right in a way bit that is because I see him looking at other women why would I believe he thinks I'm pretty if he is with me and looking at other women. I don't think he loves me and it is ripping me apart cause I love him so much. He was always nice to me before but recently he has something against me and I don't know what it is but his words cut deep and I really need help with figuring out what to do to fix it. Aside from plastic surgery and shit to look younger. I don't even look that old people usually say that to me. I have never been called names like ugly or old and it hurts when the one person on this earth who should love  you looks tells you that.