hi I'm veronica and I have maladaptive daydreaming now my md is very precise before it used to fun and free as a normal healthy does of day dream but now it intense and causing me a lot of my time and energy. I might have OCD why because  the things I daydream are repetitive it's doesn't change I feel like I also have ptsd where I keep remembering horrible things that happen in my life.i have done my best to mentally cut ties with my past so I don't think about the memories even if they play out in my head I don't get triggered, now on to the OCD part I didn't have best childhood a lot of things traumatized me, I had a bad habit of holding on to certain memories why I don't know but I did now the problem is holding on to this memories as I got older I forget them as a way to move on but what happens it I forget them in reality but they play out in my day dream again and again it's like I'm there all over again and my triggers are music once I listen to music I begin to maladaptive daydream it's annoying I can't listen to songs and enjoy it with out my mind zoing out what worse is I can also do it with out music so there is no escape and something weird I found out is when I md with music it's different from when it without music what I mean is with music the daydream could be about me talking and socializing with friends but without it I'm daydreaming about my perfect boyfriend or husband or family honestly it's was all fun and games before but now it making me run mad I can't do the properly like I can't read without zoing out ,I can't walk in the streets without zoing out something when I md, I won't shower or brush my teeth or eat and sometime when I do md once I get release I am very hungry like I haven t eaten in days also I get super exhausted from day dreaming like I put in a lot of energy to daydream for hours so when i'm done daydreaming I'm tired like legit burn out it's insane I tried self therapy it's help at least with my depression and part of my aniexty but md feel harmless like I will tell my self oh just 5mins 5mins turns to 10 10 turns to 20 20 turns to 30 30 turn to 50turn to an hour an hour turns to 2 hours to 3hours the minimum time I md is 3hours that if I force my self when I don't force my self or can't it can be 2day I can md for 2 fucking days straight I kno as a kid I hated real life but I need to be in real life as an adult so I really need help this is way out of my control