One thing that I have learned is that there are a lot of lies that I have believed over the years, most of them about me. Who I am and what I am truly capable of doing is certainly not the negative garbage that comes our way (especially) those we love. They couldn't hurt us nor stymie us more. Soooooo, look for what is true and good and dwell on that.
Yes, you are overweight, but that is not WHO you really are. Inside is a beautiful woman who longs for the same things that a woman of less weight does. You have gifts and passions which, when put to good use, can benefit many people, not the least of which could be your family.
Being disgusted with yourself might just be the catalyst to looking beyond the surface of who you are and who you want to become. I spent 65 years of my life being obese and all that went with that (including my husband's verbal thoughts and actions). When I finally came to the end of my rope and made my commitment to truly do something about it, it was just the beginning.
A lot of things have changed since then and I've learned a lot about myself as well. Now I'm at my goal weight and sometimes battling the same old things, but for me, God's word is truth and reminds me of the fact that I am greatly loved and that I CAN do all that He calls me to do because He has provided all that I need!
I'm not here to preach, but this is just part of my journey and YES, IT CAN BE DONE!!! Don't fear nor believe the lies!