The grave is endless, darkness you cant escape, the grave is hell. what you have now is more than most.....you have your own choice and none can take that away.......please look up and not inward..... because life is more than self....you are more than most and one day you will exceed to the point of joy and happiness, only you can give yourself the reasoning to endure, life is a gift..........no matter what our circumstances are........we only get from life what we put into it......and mostimes we are robbed..... but you need to learn to endure ..... at the end of that..... you achieve the most precious gift....... and that is to see the truth , love might be stolen from us...........HOPE is all we really have..... to know deep within that all will be restored though Gods mercy...don't let this world destroy your innocence......just be real......U are unique .....in all that you endure.....we are at the most fragile time in human history.......... step up and carry your own cross......Dustorm

When I look inward, I see bleak and black
I can not see
there is too much pain

When I look outward I can not see
There is too much black
I must rely on others
to steer my way

When I look at others I can only see pain
there is too much pain
they can't see me
through the black haze

I can't see them
They can't see me


I know I will not always feel this way
This will pass
I will be happy again
Maybe I don't have to look in
or look to others to guide my way
Maybe I can just let it pass
and then carry on my way.

When I look inward, I see bleak and black
I can not see
there is too much pain

When I look outward I can not see
There is too much black
I must rely on others
to steer my way

When I look at others I can only see pain
there is too much pain
they can't see me
through the black haze

I can't see them
They can't see me


I know I will not always feel this way
This will pass
I will be happy again
Maybe I don't have to look in
or look to others to guide my way
Maybe I can just let it pass
and then carry on my way.

Tosh
I can barely rely on my self to know that the decisions I make can be justified. are worthy or valued, by my friends family or work colleagues. I know if I only valued my own opinion, I would have gone mad or wiped myself out a long time ago. There has been many people in my life that have tried to destroy any happiness I achieved, I have lost many times to these people. But at the end of the day I know I value life and that all I can do is my best with all the gifts Ive been given and if I still fail well at least it will come to pass. hugs