Long Term Survivors Community Group
For those of us who have been LIVING with HIV for 10 or more years and plan to LIVE many, many more.
Hi LTS, I've been away for some time due to the loss of my wife. The last 2 years were OMG, so powerless to be of some comfort for her. She asked my family to look after me cause she knew I was a mess, & most likely, gonna fall apart She was still thinking of others on her final days. I just adored her every breathe & smile. She was negative & overcome w/ovarian cancer. The last 2 years of her life was so difficult, we got married a month before it spread to an uncontrollable ending. I've been positive since almost the beginning of this virus, & my loss almost caused my death. How are all LTS & please, tell me how you got through your own losses. I think I'm in trouble & can't stop crying when I think of all her suffering & death. I truly believe that it's not the poor me's , I just miss her so much. This past beginning of may was the anniv of her last breathe & 30 days before was our wedding anniv. I recently ate the cake that is a part of the ritual of a marriage & first anniv. If you are an LTS, you most likely experienced my current heartache. Please tell me how you were able to move on w/ less pain due to time apart & to help me get through this pain. Mark1424
I have not been through the loss of a partner. Former loves, certainly, and heroes that I couldn't imagine life without, but each pain is different. I guess we all cope differently, too.
Reading gets me out of my head. Exercise is supposed to be good to release emotional and physical toxins, but I can't swear by it ... I'm pretty lethargic. Drinking water sometimes clears my head a little.
I'd like you to hang on, but I don't really have any ideas of how you do it, except one moment at a time.