I broke up with "gf" I was not sure that she was much of a friend. She was constantly stroking my ego and the like. Set off alarm bells in light of other things she had mentionned. Might not have been the best action. But I already was taken advantage of by a narcissist and was not eager for a repeat performance. The relationship was not an equal one in regards to power also with her always ready to use her trump card without real discernment. Something that also has happenned. I got to settle for the reality that nobody is out there, I geuss. Maybe a good thing for now. But I have no network of friends to fall back on for support. I feel better and glad I split now, a couple of days later. But that network of friends? And the couple of friends I had she decided were not worthy of my time. That should have rang an alarm long before. But luckily I did not give THEM up. Be nice to have a normal life friendship wise though, having F2F friends. But one can't control what cards one gets to play with in life. Having to play with deuces all the time gets tiring though.