well, im new to this group and I have been wondering if anyone had these issues before they came out. My current situation is that I'm in a relationship with a man...as of right now. I have always been attracted to women and even been in relationship with one before when I was younger. The last 3 relationships I have been in were with Men. I was even married to one...he always called me a lesbian and was very jealous when I would be around women. Then I met someone else and he was also jealous of me around women. I have told them that I liked women and that I have been with women in my past. The current man im with now knows I like women and he doesn't have a problem with it.
This is my thing..im 36 and I think about women all the time when I have sex and when I watch porn with just women. I go out to gay bars and I feel like myself when im there and feel like I belong. Im so darn confused and have no idea what to do. What if I leave and I ruined a good relationship for nothing because I decide that its not what I want after all. We have a house together and I have a daughter he has a son and it would just kill them if I broke up the family. I cant stop thinking about this Im always thinking about what it would be like to be with a women and in a relationship. Another thing with me is that I never had a orgasm with a women before so I don't even know if the sex is good yet. I know I love kissing them and I get turned on by it. I just don't know what to do...has anyone been in this situation before?