I've been stuck in an abusive (verbally/emotionally/physically) marriage for about 10 years. If I didn't have young kids with him, I would have left him years ago. There have been periods of "normal" which make things bearable, but he will never change. I've educated myself on abuse by reading many books and I KNOW what he's doing is wrong and he will never stop. If I leave, I fear for what would happen to my kids on the days that he would have them if we got divorced. He's also an alcoholic which amplifies his anger/absuse. He "quits" drinking for periods of time and then will relapse. It's very obvious when he does but he always denies it. I'm just stuck between a rock and a hard place. I started this group with hopes that I would be able to talk to others who are in similar situations. Sometimes living this life feels so lonely because no one understands. The few people that I can confide in, just tell me to leave... but it's not that simple when you have kids.