Take a look at your past friends and relationships. Take everything anyone has ever taught you about yourself and life. Sometimes when you stop being friends with people it really is your fault so don't be afraid to recognize that. People say they don't change for anybody, but that's apart of growing up. Take all those lessons that you learned(with reason) and turn yourself into an extraordinary person that all those people would love to be with and see. Take note that some of those people will never see it because you didn’t learn until you were not able to speak to them again. Do what it takes to make them proud anyway.