so where do i even start? well first of all, i lie... a lot. i'm not talking about little white lies to get yourself out of some plans. i'm talking huge and elaborate lies  that are so detailed. i don't even know how i come up with half the shit i spew out of my mouth, even i believe my lies sometimes because they're just so specific. i go all out when it comes to lying. for example, i had a job i quit that my parents didn't know i quit. i lied for three weeks straight putting on my uniform and leaving everyday to "go to work" and ended up sitting in the parking lot for hours everyday JUST to make it more believable. i have many more examples of my lies but if i'm being as honest as possible, i'm nasty when i lie. i lie about things people should not lie about. so that example above is one of the very "kind" and "gentle" lies i've told compared to some really foul things i've said and made people believe. anyways, my mom thinks i need help with my problem. i agree, i do need help. i need to stop lying my way through life. but i don't even know i'm doing it half the time. lord just roll off my tongue. at my mothers request, i am here. and i hope in the end i get some sort of relief and support towards my problem.