Liars Anonymous Community Group
A support group to provide those with a compulsive addiction to lie a place to share hope, strength and courage with others like them; solve our common problem and help others with a compulsion to lie. We aren't alone!
I don't really know where to begin with all of this. It's been a very cruel and bad cycle as of late.
I got into another fight with a girl I am trying to work things out with. I was basically caught doing something insignificant but couldn't bring myself to say the truth.
I tell her I want to walk the right path, to be there by her side and be honest, but it feels like every time I try, there's just something that decides to knock me off the path and I don't know why. I don't know if I am afraid, scared, embarassed. I really do not know.
I have a therapist, it just sucks because it feels like every time I have a session, I have to completely screw up the next day.
I feel like growing up, I was always seen as could never do no wrong, so it never made me feel like the need to tell the truth was at the top of the list. And now that I'm older, I'm genuinely scared that having such an up bringing will lead me to have an unfulfilled life, especially with there being so many triggers from past relationships and my upbringing.
How does one break this cycle...
I do believe that the 12-step program is one that can be an integral part of recovery from this addiction. I know those that it has worked for in terms of alcohol and also drug addiction. I have been through therapy for this addiction or sickness, whatever you want to call it - and it stopped for a little while but after a little while of my therapy ending it all started up again.
However, I (and this is just my opinion) lying is an addiction that can only be dealt with through an internal acceptance. One of the biggest steps in this process is fully admitting that you have a problem out loud. The second is taking it one day at a time. It's not going to end over night but each day, get up in the morning and acknowledge you have that problem - if you believe in prayer - say a prayer, if not, look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself, "if I lie today, what and who would it affect? Is it worth it?" And just keep those questions in mind throughout the day. I have slipped here and there, but I have found that the self inflection and realization has helped.
If anyone wants to discuss privately feel free to send a message. Stay Strong everyone!