Damn it..I Wish I could express things like some of you do.

I think you expressed yourself brilliantly.
JC... You brought tears to my eyes because I know exactly what you mean.
You've written what's been in my thoughts and it warms my heart to feel the understanding and compassion that is what this group is made of.
I need to huddle. I need to huddle with you all.
Love you all so much...

You are a wonderful woman jc
Your sentiment is as kind and loving as anyone could hope for
I am still north, on Lake Superior, in Wisconsin
Had a big for us family gathering, my wife, daughters and a granddaughter , mom and dad and friends
It has been lovely,
I just wish I didn't feel so empty inside
It seems that I am incapable of feeling much of the worlds positive
I look around and I feel so much pain, physical and mentally

I go to the shoreline and keep wishing to be off shore
Out where the shore is far far away,
where the seagulls fly horizon to horizon
There is where I feel a peace in my heart ,

a calmness in my head
The voices in my head seem to get lost while out there
The world melts away for me
Oh well so much for all of that....
That world feels like a lifetime ago.

Peace
M

Bex and Michael..
I KNOW you are both struggling with some mean demons.
I appreciate... so much.. your replies here.
Just your BEING here.
I know it's so damned hard sometimes to even just be here..
So.. thank you.

My heart aches with wishing I could give some real comfort to our LMBM family
( and others)..

Our little house at the end of the road in the worst part of town..
...

Huddle & hugs
Thank you xoxox

Thank you, Hero.
You are dearly steadfast.
Luvnhugs

jc you bring on words when there are no words.
The right words. Just the right ones.
love you all

Aww,... I like a firepit, n a good Huddle... Pssst,... passing something of comfort sounds really good too.. 8-)..

Dang that nasty ol'e "Iron Road", grumble, grumble,... with speed bumps too...

Loving you guys bunches,. Gentle (((Huhs, Hugs, n Sparkles)))) xoxoxoxox

I guess isolation has been the only consistent comfort I've had throughout my life. Before I found DS and before I was reaching out to others online, when times were tough and there was no one around for me, the only comfort I could find was within myself. When my parents were screaming and arguing I would put my headphones on, close my eyes, and let my mind slip into the silent darkness. When I couldn't handle the stress of coping with what my body is going through and had no one that could relate, my good friend isolation was there for me. I guess it's true what they say... old habits die hard, Even after all these years of being on DS, when the shit hits the fan, my first reaction is to dive into the trenches that is isolation... so to speak. I know this topic isn't targeted towards mr personally, but I still felt it necessary to explain my actions. I hope none of you have ever taken my distancing personal. I love you all dearly.

To tell the truth..
Which is what we do here..
I do sometimes take it personally when folks disappear.
I truly care.
So..I miss people. And worry.
...I have my times when I have to shut down..
But..I can never keep from seeing how everyone's doing for too long.

It makes me sad when others don't seem to feel the same.

Huddling!

I'm a Huddling too..... and a re-booting,...finding that the stinky fish, getting some fresh helium ... and the restart the ol'e Basement (cough) Sparkle Generator.....

Putt,.. Put,... Puutt,.. Spar,... putt, putaa,... sparkle,... put,.... sparkle ,... Huuuummm,...Splat,...... Sparkle,... Sparkle,....

Sorry guys,... Just a bit lost in my man cave trying to resolve some of dilemma's with in this Frog's scarce brain cell compartment thingy...

Loving You Bunches Dearest Groovers of LMBM,.... n sending Wishes up n Hopes for manageable and peaceful soul time.... Huge (((Hugs)))) xoxoxoxo

K...

So I'm feeing???
Like well...
I'm trying to speak up a bit
But lately...
I'm getting paranoid
Starting to think I'm saying something wrong?
I am wondering if I am saying something to alianate folks?
When I comment I certinlly hope I am not hurting anyone in anyway

All of you folks are amazing
When I try to follow your life's
I am humbled with all, that you all endure
I find strength from you all.
often
Thank you all
Love
M

I'm huddling back up again. I love and miss you guys. I want to be here more and I want to break this cycle I'm in of popping in to say hi and then running for cover again and isolating. I want to be a better friend to you all!

Hey buds..
Sorry for being AWOL..
Foster puppy chewed my charger cord.
( I KNOW..not the first..my husbands puppy did that last year :-)
Hugs all