I'll be the first to sign the guestbook!

I am in pain all the time and I can't stand it!

I need another source of income and I would still need to keep wrecking my body doing hair. That part really sucks.

I hate being tied to a schedule of meds that isn't even working for me! Grrrr....yes, I'm snarling.

I hate that I miss so many family events because of pain and exhaustion!!!

I'm sure I'll have more to add, but typing is killing me...I hate that, too!

Who's next...you all know you want to let loose!

I'll add one!!


I'm sick and tired of all my friends here on DS always being in pain!!! It really does break my heart! I would give anything if I could fix everyone and take all your pain away

Why Why Why!

O and I hate the dr.'s that won't give us the pain relief we all need because they are scared of being under investigation. Just plain tired of it!

I hope no one gets mad at me for this post. I just needed to vent and I couldn't do it on the main board. Just wanted to give us all an outlet in a safe place. I feel safe here.

*huge hugs to the commenters so far*

I'm so sick of feeling like a burden. I hate that I've been two years without a job and my husband has to carry me.
I would give anything to stop the thoughts that ricochet round my mind tearing chunks out of my self esteem and psyche.
I wish I had more motivation than a salted peanut. I hate how I intend to do so many things but they don't happen.
I've been mentally divergent (omg I love the movie 12 Monkeys) for 14 years and I'm sick of sounding so damn whiny and depressive all the time.

Oh man Dix, thanks for the Bitchin' Pity Party... I really needed to get straight in my head what is bugging me. And writing things down has always helped.

Hugs to you too Death....I don't like to whine too much but like you said: sometimes it just helps to write it out in a fast rant. LOL, then I usually wish I hadn't, but sure feels good at the moment doesn't it!

Re-read the first sentence of Dixie last comment, and try not to laugh...:-)

I think a good rant on occasion helps..
I'm on a computer break and keeping typing to minimum...

Luv n hugs..jc

Ok I want to join as I have some gripes

I am sick of always doing everything in this house even tho I cant and it does not get done, I wont even tell you what I havent cleaned in awhile

I am sick of being a taxi and a bank

I am sick of being in pain and like death was saying having so many things I want to do and cant and I have the motivation I just dont have the will power and I Say the famous last words when I get up from my nap I will get this done.

Whew I feel better a bit anyways

i'm sick of a good day being shot to shit. i'm sick of waking up to roaches when i clean with clorox so much my hands are parched, getting shit head replies from "friends," of having dreams of my shithead ex from 30 years ago cheating on me. for being treated like crap by my neighbors for being educated and white, for being out of pain a few hours to wake up in excrutiating pain. of not being able to live. of being broke for a week every month b/c all my years of work barely gave me enough to survive. of having to tie a freaking homemade ice pack on b/c i can't get lidocaine patches. i'm sick and tired. of everything.

i don't feel better. i want sleep, i want to be able to do something, sleep. live where i want to.
no one is even awake on the insomnia group. i hate being grumbelina day after day. of groveling for any help. geez, sleep, being able to move.doing whatever the hell i felt like doing.

i'm tempted to cancel this, but i'd rather just let it be out there. back to beg for sleep. i know more people have it worse.

You all have done such a great job.

I am sick of not being able to rant or vent.

And as Dixie put it " I am sick of not being able to help anyone including myself.

I'm sick of not being able to go for a simple walk. It was something I always enjoyed and helped me to destress. I'm sick of being sick to my stomach from my meds all the time.

It is funny, jc.

what i might post now.. is probably way too much. this isn't like a pity party entry, it's almost a blow up. it's so much, i don't even know if i should post it here, but when i ask myself that question... i always cave and tell anyone who will stand still for it.

heather, i think i'm more lonely than i know. i think it just hit me.
i hope my response to your cp post came off right. if it didn't please tell me straight up... i just want love and support, like we all do. i may be thorny and appear really prickly to touch, but that isn't really me. at all..

i'm about to post a blow out. PLEASE, MAY NOT ONE OF YOU FEEL OBLIGATED TO RESPOND OR READ IT OR RESPOND IF YOU DO READ IT. i mean that wholeheartedly. none of you need my crap to add to your own.

dixie, lady. i can't help myself you hit me~ i got sucked into this idea after a few days of total silence. thank you. really.

aww.. it's just gonna have to wait.

i love you all.

I am sick of the pain, of not being able to stand & walk without constant pain.
I am sick of a hubby that treats me like the love of his life 1 minute & the next I am the biggest piece of crap ever.
I am sick of having a dirty house because what used to take me 1 hour now takes me 4-5 hours to do.
I am sick of all my friends having to live in the same daily pain as I do.

Now I just need to add that I AM GRATEFUL for all of my DS family & friends that are not only constant source but also the only source of support & joy that I have in my live other then my kids...

I am sick of the pain, of not being able to stand & walk without constant pain.
I am sick of a hubby that treats me like the love of his life 1 minute & the next I am the biggest piece of crap ever.
I am sick of having a dirty house because what used to take me 1 hour now takes me 4-5 hours to do.
I am sick of all my friends having to live in the same daily pain as I do.

Now I just need to add that I AM GRATEFUL for all of my DS family & friends that are not only constant source but also the only source of support & joy that I have in my live other then my kids...

I'm sick of everything! Sick of trying too! If I let loose there wouldn't be enough rope!

But I understand everyone here! I'm grateful you all are letting it out!

Love love , love LMBM x

on occasion....there will be one of those convergances of unknown duration, chronologically speakin
..................but that always last for effinever.
where everything in your life that is affected by this awful crap(i've yet to find one thing that isn't)
every facet of your existence that rubs up against this buzzsaw
is unmercifully thrashed to the point of increasing bouts of madness
where every breathe, every thought .............every every effort is bent toward surviving the moment.
yeah i just really hate that.
but this place to say it
and you people to say it with
are a Blessing and a Gift
i love you guys
PEACE
t