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heyguys
i want to first apologize to thos ei have hurt.......you know who you are.
i'm sorry..........you should know that too.
to everyone......i'm sorry i've been gone so long.....said a lot........sorry again.
i wont bore you with details...physical......healthical...........or.............any uh......acal.
it's been a bitch here.
i know it has for you all............but
guess i'm just weak.
i dunno
anyhow
tonite......me and wife decided to divorce.
i don't know where it all will go fom here.....or(of course)....when i'll be back.
more likeley sooner than late(provided i can get the web ....whereebr i go)
so...........i will be needin you.
i HAVE BEEN needin you.
just.................fuckit.........i been gone
tried not to but...............too much shit.
maybe now ............or soon ish......i will be able to talk around on here with my friends ................free and easy.
free and easy as it gets on the iron road.
i know
you know
there is , has been....nothin but clean livin twixt us, you and me(*shut up Deb :):)
maybe now.....if things go medium ok......i'll make it back.
i know i aint been THE ROCK here......but i also know that i have.......in my own small way.......been a good friend to you.
for the lack of that......i got nothin to say but....i'm sorry.
been overfuckinwhelmed.........but.........who here aint?
just writin here has tears in my eyes(JC).........you...especially.......i think i done the most wrong to.
so soooooooooooo fucking sorry.
sounds all lame.......tod gone forfuckinever now wantin............what i had here.
i..............thought i had a chance by puttin all my meagerass resouces into...........save this thing.
it aint happennin.
please......if you are a prayer........pray for our boys......they don't deservr this.
if you aint a prayer.........please keep outr little guys(little :) jed's bigger than i ever was)
just
i miss you
i got...........as we all do......severe limited doanyfuckinthing.
i bet on the wrong horse.
gave it everything......wasn't enuff.
not enuff to make it work and............i am covered in shame here............i gave it without enuff regard to you.
all of you...........but.......ONE in particular.
you been hurtin and scared and i havent been here.
i hope i aint busted our friendship.......like i said in PM..you will always be my friend.
i will always loveyou.
ok.
there is my bit.
i love you guys more than life...........i know you.
that is part of the reason (i'm ashamed to say on my part......and proud that i have friends i could say it about) that i thought i could leave here and.........fix..........things.
sucker bet.............i lost....and hurt friendships in the process.
can't fix that............what i can do.....is try to be again....the friend i think you guys have known me for.
anyhow.........like i say......i don't know nothin beyond tonite but that.........it's done here.
i wont leave her homeless so i will seek other accomidations(4 syllables! not bad for a gaptooth billy) spelled wrong apparently but......i'm takin it :)
if i get internet wherever i go......i'll be back.
otherwise........i think i can get into the library and do it there.
i dunno.
i know fuckin nothin right now.
EXCEPT...........i love you
i miss you
i hope to be back and messin with everyone ...............someday.
i've said it lots
it's always been true
you guys have saved my life more than..............wow..more than quite a few.
more than anyone else evr i've known.
i hope you all are doin(tho i know you aint) as good as you can be.
i LOVE beein .......your friend.
sorry i have sucke dat it so bad this year.
i'll get better.................for you especially specific ONE.........who has deserved................better.
or i'll die tryin.
................or.............no "or"
i will come back and ......try to rebuild our friendship.
................well........unless the world ends.
iloveyou
PEACE
t
i want to first apologize to thos ei have hurt.......you know who you are.
i'm sorry..........you should know that too.
to everyone......i'm sorry i've been gone so long.....said a lot........sorry again.
i wont bore you with details...physical......healthical...........or.............any uh......acal.
it's been a bitch here.
i know it has for you all............but
guess i'm just weak.
i dunno
anyhow
tonite......me and wife decided to divorce.
i don't know where it all will go fom here.....or(of course)....when i'll be back.
more likeley sooner than late(provided i can get the web ....whereebr i go)
so...........i will be needin you.
i HAVE BEEN needin you.
just.................fuckit.........i been gone
tried not to but...............too much shit.
maybe now ............or soon ish......i will be able to talk around on here with my friends ................free and easy.
free and easy as it gets on the iron road.
i know
you know
there is , has been....nothin but clean livin twixt us, you and me(*shut up Deb :):)
maybe now.....if things go medium ok......i'll make it back.
i know i aint been THE ROCK here......but i also know that i have.......in my own small way.......been a good friend to you.
for the lack of that......i got nothin to say but....i'm sorry.
been overfuckinwhelmed.........but.........who here aint?
just writin here has tears in my eyes(JC).........you...especially.......i think i done the most wrong to.
so soooooooooooo fucking sorry.
sounds all lame.......tod gone forfuckinever now wantin............what i had here.
i..............thought i had a chance by puttin all my meagerass resouces into...........save this thing.
it aint happennin.
please......if you are a prayer........pray for our boys......they don't deservr this.
if you aint a prayer.........please keep outr little guys(little :) jed's bigger than i ever was)
just
i miss you
i got...........as we all do......severe limited doanyfuckinthing.
i bet on the wrong horse.
gave it everything......wasn't enuff.
not enuff to make it work and............i am covered in shame here............i gave it without enuff regard to you.
all of you...........but.......ONE in particular.
you been hurtin and scared and i havent been here.
i hope i aint busted our friendship.......like i said in PM..you will always be my friend.
i will always loveyou.
ok.
there is my bit.
i love you guys more than life...........i know you.
that is part of the reason (i'm ashamed to say on my part......and proud that i have friends i could say it about) that i thought i could leave here and.........fix..........things.
sucker bet.............i lost....and hurt friendships in the process.
can't fix that............what i can do.....is try to be again....the friend i think you guys have known me for.
anyhow.........like i say......i don't know nothin beyond tonite but that.........it's done here.
i wont leave her homeless so i will seek other accomidations(4 syllables! not bad for a gaptooth billy) spelled wrong apparently but......i'm takin it :)
if i get internet wherever i go......i'll be back.
otherwise........i think i can get into the library and do it there.
i dunno.
i know fuckin nothin right now.
EXCEPT...........i love you
i miss you
i hope to be back and messin with everyone ...............someday.
i've said it lots
it's always been true
you guys have saved my life more than..............wow..more than quite a few.
more than anyone else evr i've known.
i hope you all are doin(tho i know you aint) as good as you can be.
i LOVE beein .......your friend.
sorry i have sucke dat it so bad this year.
i'll get better.................for you especially specific ONE.........who has deserved................better.
or i'll die tryin.
................or.............no "or"
i will come back and ......try to rebuild our friendship.
................well........unless the world ends.
iloveyou
PEACE
t
Next, from me, complete understanding you were where you needed to be,doing what you needed to be doing.
I've been absent too, guilty of letting others worry. I'm sorry for that also. However, I truely believe that we as we are in CP understand the shitful crushing conditions we live under sometimes burry us in depression. Hell, I didn't even turn my iPad on for months.
I forgive and pray for all I know. I cry as I write for you, your family and your pain. All are in my prayers.
Every Day on the Iron Road ........ You have a friend in me, Todd, I know you have many friends here. No judgement, just a soft place to be "you".
Getting all choked up reading this and wishing I'd been a better friend... I feel I should've been here for you much more than I was/is/were?
You're in my heart and I'm here. I will repeat that until my fingers are hoarse.
Hold on.
xox