Jc.........i know exactly how you feel.
in my obsessive quest for Peace.....well it's for everyone. i know i've written over the years
more than one post adressing what you have just said yourself.
i want, with all my heart as well....ANY victory for ANYbody.
the struggle is a bitch and we come here because the other people inb our lives are simply not
equipped to understand, things like...when they've worked extra hard at something intensley, both physical and menta.
totally wiped out and beat up.
they cannot comprehend that we feel this way just openin our eyes in the morning.
here.we understand.....but that's because we live it.
therefopr.....we gain understanding..but we also gain a lot of people we care deeply about
who are not ever going to get better.
therefor.....ANY victory for ANYbody becomes a desparate cry.
i'm with ya buddy......all the way.
i can tell you though that i've seen the sites cycle.
when you came on , you and a few others had a tremendous impact and changed the mood of the place in a bigass way.
things will come around again.
they always have.
so.....................hold on :)
and know that i'm not the only oner to undwerstand you......but i AM the only one to love you like i do.
PEACE to you my wonderful, tough, compassionate beautiful smartass friend.
i love you Jc
t

When the sun rises n warms the frog, a smile increasingly spreads knowing awesome people like you JC and my buds are here n out there somewhere.......

Ebbs n flows, so keep hanging on sweetness..... you / we cant fix things out of our control....... Just step back n focus on what CP does bring.... Good friends, love, hope n peace...... something your so good at.....

N......." I am the only one that loves you like I do"..... too...... everyone is unique.... esp Big Dog (he he)

I still reckon... It's that Dang Full moon thingy.... here it's the winter solstice n there the Summer solstice?? change of the season thing...... Funks.....

Dang those nasty Funks.....

Hey..... who wants to rub boomerangs together in the "experiment room"..... Oooooops, the "basement"

Steva the legend captured one of those.... one eyed, one horned, purple people eaters n I am about to feed Yolkijens Landlord to it..... Wahaaa ha haaaaa...

I so grew up in the wrong Era..... bring back the sixties.. free love, n fun medication.... 8-)

Sorry went a bit awol there..... Hmmmmm... Just love ya JC... sending huge Aussie {{{{Cuddles}}}} xoxox

for your birthday Seek i wanna get you your own dungeon

Whoot Whoot.... Dungeon.... Mmmmmm.... 8-)
Thanks T, your a legend..... wonder what fun we can have with a dungeon?????
8-)

Dear jc, I notice my feeling about cp have ebbs and flows, just like Seek said. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with all the pain out there. I can only take care in my little way. If we all do it, it will move mountains. I've needed a break form cp before. I think I understand what you are feeling. We sure do miss you on the boards. I'm glad to see you are still active in the "hug" department. Give yourself a break. Love ya!

heatherhurts

Dear JC, do you remember a time when I told you my Pain Doc advised giving DS a rest? You hit the nail on the head so to speak......this was at a time I was becoming depressed, I'd cry for others, would try to post consistently, I simply found " my tribe". Others that were living in the daily struggle, sometimes the tears were selfish in a way, as I felt so humbled I'd found others who truly understood my journey.......then I'd cry for the injustice....I got myself real down.

You came to these boards and lit them up with your spirit. You are special. But you need to take care of you! I know it sounds weird, but we can only take so much. On a good day, I can give and give. On a bad, I live in all honesty, hour by hour. Take time to replenish you. You are a true Gift to our CP world. There are days just reading a one liner from you, will get me to laugh......home alone in agony accross the Pacific and there is this Chic in the USA who brightens my day! Hang in there. Give your self a break, sometimes the CP stuff his just too much......Normal ....we get each other! That's why it effects us so much.

Big Dog, you do spread Peace, your wonderful dry humor self, is a highligt to my day also! Love you all!

Seek, my groggy friend you are so fine, but I don't want to upset JC.....love your "flip side" !

JC you are one cool chic! Love yaM

Jan I loves ya. You change things in a big way. Still it is there and I know it. It gets us all and leaves us speechless. It grips and squeezes the heart. Like Shoes says it can take you down. It can lift you up to though. It can give you reason. Somedays there is a small win. A smile or two.

Rest, just don't go to far. Pulezee!

Jan I feel your pain.

Jan, Big Dog, Seek, Heather, Shoes, Hippy and all the other wonderful folks here on this site, I'm not in the pain like you any more. I am in a remission and each day am getting better and better. All though i just had a 2 day flare but it was nothing like before.

I really hurts my heart to know you all are in such great pain. It's hard feeling well and your friends are not. I do read the big boards but seldom reply or post there as I have no answers to anyone's pain. I don't know how I have come this far, wish i did as I would share with you so you too could feel like i do.

I feel like a hundred dollar bill. I know it's not alot but it's so much more than a penny.
I agree Jan, All who suffer from pain day to day are not being medicated enough and they will not be with this atmosphere in the medical community, thinking we are all a bunch of junkies.

Drs are torturing us with pain refusing to medicate us until we are comfortably numb. Only then can we get relief and our bodies can heal. Our minds know only pain now, if you think about it we learn through repeated memory Ie how to walk, keep our balance, talk and dissect little animals.

Our brains and nervous systems need a break from pain then to relearn the feeling of feeling good.

I guess that is why i post silly things here or maybe 'cause i can?

Steva.!! The silly things you post are a gift, my friend. You brighten little corners of a dark place with your bits of fun.

ALL of the folks here ..who somehow made there way to this LMBM site....
Bring something special and needed.
That's why I could say this here before even trying to talk about it on other boards.

I could never stop coming by here...

I love you all..as a whole, and individually...hugs..jc

....ha...........dissect little animals.........:)

see...?..." special"

this is a little spot in the DS world where pain seems not so real. it resides in a cabin in the woods with shine and a blow up doll and a sex swing and a hole for a shot and CPS babysitting kids. it is seeks basement and his creations and it is so much more. some reality can slip in and when it does it is just that real. oh we can't forget our Matt and his aliens and planet of so much more.

No Jan i don't think so........

Yes, Hippy you have described our strange Haven well. Just perfect! Just like everyone who finds this special place.

Seek has been a bit quiet down there though? Ummmmmm xxxxxxx

Well said, Hippy...and so true.

yep