Wow, I am the fisr one here today! I actually made it to part of the church service this morning. It was very therapeutic. I cried a lot and everyne was very supportive and understanding. Carrie, Johsh's youth group leader, prayed for me. I told her that I was having a hard time battling mental illness and that I have been wanting to go to church for years but had too much social anxiety to be able to go. She said that there was a qiet room in the back that I could retreat to if I needed some space but stil wanted to hear the service, if I wanted to try to come back to church again. She also lffered again to meet with me for coffee and to talk. She said that I didn't need to worry about scaring her away with anything I had to say and that I had a lot of courage and that she apprecited me being honest about how I felt.

So, wow!

Getting ready to go to Cleveland today.