I was unaware of this group so I apoligize for not writing you sooner.....first and foremost, are you safe, did you call a crisis line or was someone else able to make the call so you could some measure of support that way....at least enough not to claw yourself out???

Are you in a safer place today?

What do you think someone could say to you that would support you and help you learn safe ways to cope?.

While not a cutter myself, I've had many friends in the past and still have one now whose cutting has gotten severely out of control and I do understand the dynamics of it.

Are you in treament for your mental issues??? If so....do you feel they are helping in ways beside meds?
If you are in treatment, do you trust the providers and if not, do you have the option of looking elsewhere?

I have severe PTSD, some issues of BPD, panic attacks and non-stop anxiety along with the chronic physical
pain of spinal OA.

You had tremedous courage to post this here....I commend you for being able to do that in such a dire crisis state.

At the least, keep posting here and looking for other sites here that may have info to help you help yourself.

I am ever so sorry I do not have the answers you so desperately need and pray that somehow a beacon of light will come into your world to help you to recovery.

peace...
marci

Their are crisis line phone numbers on the bottom of these pages, including international ones....those folks don't charge to talk to you....please give them a call if you have no other recource!!!!