We are considering implanting our only FET shot... a mosaic (we had 8 abnormals but one was possibly less abnormal - the mosaic). Its a 20% shot it will even implant let alone go FT.

Our doctor was concerned about me miscarring again for a 7th time but I said "nah, I can do it" like it was no longer a big deal. I wondered afterwards if that is unhealthy. If I am alone feeling this way. Its a weird question I know.

I am new here but have had a very rough 2.5 years. Had 3 ectopics, almost lost my uterus, lost both my tubes, have had emergency surgery to save my life, my husband was nearly killed, and right now I am on bed rest after a knee surgery-gone-wrong and resulting blood clots (thank you pre-implantation BC pills). But yes, once I can walk again in 2 weeks we will implant darn it! I had my knee done before implant so it wouldnt be a problem for my pregnancy.

Sometimes I wonder if I have just repressed so much and it isnt good or if I am coping ok. I dont typically share much so it is finally nice to get that all out.

I have a daughter almost 4 and we went today (as my first outting in 10 days) to visit our friend's new baby. My daughter and I held her and I was ok. I didnt think I would be but I was. I cried a little by myself later in bed again but I think that was maybe enough.

I worry I may break. I fully anticipate another MC but I am not sure if this one will be different given there was so much more anticipation involved this time (IVF).

Is there a point at which everything just becomes numb and is that a bad thing? Am I not dealing properly or am I dealing OK? I am worried I dont know the answer.